Dear Him Part 2

Dear Him,

I just want to say I'm sorry for my immature antics regarding my infatuation with you.  I had loose lips regarding my want and you wound up getting harassed and that wasn't my intention. I just couldn't keep it to myself.  I couldn't tell you because I was scared.

I could handle you telling me no ... you don't feel it like I do.

It's a feeling so strong within me and I'm left without a release since I will never see you again.

I would also like to say thank you.  Thank you for dealing with my inner crazy with such tact.  You still respected me even though I'm sure I made your life miserable.

You are truly an honorable man and the woman that actually gets you is truly, truly lucky.

I envy her.

Dear Him

Dear Him,

You know who you are.  I don't know how this happened.  I guess it was just me wishfully thinking that God laid you aside for me.  When I look upon you I see ... perfection.

Everything I've every wanted.  I just want to know you and every time I think maybe you feel it too I feel let down.

Please know that I'm not a toy.  Please don't play with me ... not my emotions anyway.  What I want is simple.  Our time together is running short.  I just want a sign that you may be interested in meeting me.  We should start slow just to see if when we both come out of our shell our we people that we'd even want to interact with.  I think it will hurt me greatly to have to leave that place and to never know what you were thinking in regards to me.

I wish I had the time to move slow.  I just want to give you my number. Just in case you're curious too.

But deep down I know that it's something I will never do ...

So Mr. Him, know that there was this woman who wanted you more than anything and that she literally ached to get to know you.  She's not crazy she just extremely sigh and doesn't want to be hurt.  So writing this here is the best she can do.

Good luck in everything you do and I will miss you.

AJ