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Remembering Leah Teaser

Introduction

No one really had any love for the female wolf.  They found her to be a bitter “drag” to be around.  So they left her in her hell to mourn the life she should have had.  Should have had Sam but fate deemed her cousin a better wife for him.  Her father should be alive but fate took him away from her far too soon.

She constantly felt she had to prove herself that’s what made her take on the last newborn during battle.  Only one wolf tried to help her, Jacob, but he was too late.  The sad thing was that even though Jacob tried to save Leah, his actions were more to spare Sue the hurt; it wasn’t because he remotely liked Leah at all.  So when he saw the newborn crushed her cranium against a boulder and rendered her unconscious, he like most of the others were shocked but indifferent in regards to her well being.   Leah’s body instantly went back to its human form and Emmett and Rosalie finished off the newborn.  Alice covered the female shifters body and tried to revive her.  Nothing, I heard nothing from her thoughts.  I only saw blackness.  We all would have thought she was dead if it wasn’t for her heartbeat.  That faint little thumb that was so weak that I was sure she was giving up.    

“The Volturi, she needs to be removed before their arrival.  I will come to her after we are finished,” Carlisle said in hushed and rushed tones before rejoining with Esme to address Aro. 

 The pack removed her …

Chapter 1:  Comatose

Sue leaned over her daughter crying.  “Oh God what happened?”  Sue cried, “Who is responsible for this!”  Carlisle brought me along with him to see if there was any mental activity going on inside of her, but right now Leah Clearwater’s mind remained a lifeless tomb.  The whole pack stood around her. 

“She should have listened.”  Sam said quietly.  He forced himself to feel no regret but in the back of his mind he remembered laughing and chasing Leah in a sundress up a hill when they were younger.  He had loved her and part of him remembered that love, but he felt to acknowledge that feeling for Leah would be disrespect for her current fiancée.  “Always so stubborn,” I felt the tension and ache in his throat as he masked his concern for the sake of his new fiancé.  I looked on Leah’s face she seemed at peace, it wasn’t as if she was dreaming, or more appropriately it seemed like her slate had been wiped clean. 

“All of that doesn’t matter now.  All that matters is that my sister wakes up.”  Seth stood by the doors frame while all of this transpired.  He was the one person that felt the appropriate hurt.  He felt like he was quickly losing everyone that he loved.  Leah had never been the bitter bitch to him that all of his pack makes saw her as.  She was a warm a protective sister.    

“That’s what I’m working on.”  Carlisle looked at me and I shook my head, there was nothing going on upstairs.  He sighed and covered Leah with the blanket and asked everyone to exit the room.  Everyone looked at my father waiting for a response. “I don’t know what information I can give you.  She’s in a coma … the bump on her head should be healed by morning.  However, that doesn’t guarantee that she will awaken by then.”  Her mother began to cry.  Emily tried to comfort her but she really wasn’t having it.  Out of the corner of my eye I noticed that my Bella had pulled Jacob to the side and was talking to him.  My skin boiled, I couldn’t believe that she was pissed at me because I let it be known that we planned to be married.  Her focus seemed to be on comforting him but his focus was on what was going on with Leah.  Now that Jacob knew that Leah could die he was concerned, he had known her since he was little.  It would be odd to not have her around.  He knew from now on he would be happy to have the harpy be a nag around him.    

“How long could she be out of it like this,” Sue looked up at Carlisle looked pleadingly. 

“Comas could last a couple days, weeks, months …” Then we saw her inch her way into the living room.  She held the wall with one hand and her head with the other.  She looked around the room wide eyed and alarmed.    

“Oh my God Leah you had us all worried sick!”  Her mother rushed to her and embraced her and Leah flinched away she looked at her mother as if she were somebody foreign.  Actually she was looking at everyone and everything that way. 

“Leah who is hugging you right now?”  I asked and Sue looked at her at me confused and then looked back at her daughter. 

“My … mom?”  Sue smiled; she didn’t realize that Leah was asking not answering the question.  She searched both Sue and my expression for validity or her deduction. 

“Do you know your last name?”  I asked and everybody started to catch on.  I heard someone in the background gasp and Emily say oh no.  Leah looked around embarrassed by her lack of familiarity and then tears welled up and then ran down her cheeks as she shook her head.  Carlisle stood in front of her trying to block everybody in the room, so that their stares and presence wasn’t so overwhelming.  “Tell me what going on in your head Leah.” 

“I’m confused and scared … I didn’t know my first name before she … my mom … said it.”  She sighed.  “My head hurts really badly.” 

“You should probably lay back down and rest.”  Carlisle tried to escort her back to the room so she could have the quiet she needed to remember everything. 

“But …,” she stalled, “I really wanted to see my face.”  He smiled sadly at her.  He gave her pity and empathy because that’s what she needed. 

“Of course young one,” he took her to mirror in the living room beside the front door and she looked at herself mesmerized. 

“That’s me … Leah.”  She sighed deeply and another tear rolled down her face.  I think she hoped actually seeing her face would bring back some memories of something but she didn’t receive anything not for lack of trying.  She continued to stare in silence and with a shaky hand touched some of the features of her face.  I look a lot older than I feel, she thought. 

“You don’t want to strain for memories Leah, they will come naturally, I promise to do everything I can to help you.”  Carlisle placed his hand on her shoulder and she embraced him.  It was the first time I’d ever witnessed Leah actually be nice to one of our kind and think on them with positivity.    

“I really hope you can.”  She said between sobs as she continued to cling to him.  

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Awakening The Elements Teaser

Based Loosely off of The Heart At It’s Darkest by ChemicalJane

It had been over two years …

Since I had left my home in hopes of finding new happiness … well maybe not happiness, but a new purpose.  I found many things but I don’t know if it was my purpose in life, but it was most definitely a new perspective.  Two years since I had fully embraced what I was, two years of almost completely living like a human.  The main reason I was coming back was because I had decided that I was okay was what I was, I even lived for certain parts of it.  Two years had past and my secret or better yet our secret should be a memory in everyone’s minds. 

I had to come back because if I didn’t I feared I would lose myself and more importantly my ability to phase, each time I tried it was harder to get that burning ripple to flow underneath my skin and give way to my inner animal.  The last time I tried I stood for a good hour in an unknown forest trying to invoke enough of an emotion to trigger and angry response in my body, but I couldn’t think of anything I was truly angry about.  I was not the same Leah, I wasn’t bitter and everything I seemed to bitter about before seemed like a distant memory.  After traveling the world, seeing major destruction and learning of so many natural disasters it made all of my emotional baggage petty at best. 

Now, I sat in the taxi in front of my home in Forks, I watched as someone peeked through the blinds curiously.  I hadn’t told them I was coming home I wanted to surprise everyone, plus I knew if  I told them I was coming home they would ask me a question I still didn’t have the answer to … How long was I staying?  I kept telling myself that I would stay long enough to get my ability to phase comfortably back then I would leave.  Staying here would serve me no good, but something told me that I was lying to myself and that I was in for a rude awakening if I thought I was just going to walk back into my old life and no drama would befall me.  I sighed deeply and handed the driver a hundred dollars. 

“Thanks” I stepped out into my front yard and adjusted my clothes a bit. 

“No way!” I heard Seth yell from the house, “Mom, Leah’s back, Leah’s back!”  Seth whipped opened the door and ran towards me scooping me up in a big hug and squeezing me until I was almost breathless.  “Leah God I missed you!” 

“I missed you too!” I gasped as he let me down.  He grabbed one of my bags and helped me in side.  Once in our living room I sat on the couch and take a deep whiff expecting to smell all of the memories of home but instead, my eyes widen with excitement and horror.  I immediately stood up and headed for the front door, this was a mistake.  It had to be because if it weren’t I wouldn’t be getting ready to face this right now.  I haven’t even had the time to get comfortable being home.  I wasn’t going to deal with the situation just not now. 

“Where are you going Leah?”  He laughed, “You looked scared to death!”  He now sat were I was once located on the couch. 

“Fresh air,” I murmured.  I needed to escape before they all approached me, it would be too much. 

“Can’t you wait until you see mom she has missed you like crazy!”

“You’re right … I’ll stay.”  I sat in the chair by the door, just in case I needed to make a run for but I really did want to see mom.  “Where is mom anyway?” 

“She is upstairs, she was getting dressed,” he shrugged, “some things take her the longest time.” 

“Yeah …” Then, murmuring came from the back door, through the kitchen, and now appeared to me in the form of Jacob, Bella, Edward, and little Renesmee (who looked to be about 10 years old). 

“Leah!!” Jacob grabbed and shook me senseless.  “Welcome back Beta!  You are back right?” 

“I” I was about to give him an excuse but he really didn’t seem to care about what I had to say. 

“You look hot by the way; it has been a million years since I have seen you with long hair and what up with it being all curly.”  He went to run his fingers through it and Bella cleared her throat, she never did like any of the attention Jacob gave me, especially once he imprinted on her little … .  Look at me I was getting ready to go back into my old ways of thinking maybe it was the bitterness that gave me ability to phase so quickly, maybe that was what I was missing. 

“Jacob,” I moved his hand from my hair, “its just hair, God.” I smoothed my hands over my jeans and took a seat.  We all sat in silence momentarily. 

“So what brings you back?”  Bella said not looking at me with her voice cold.

“I missed my family …” I thought better of mentioning my other dilemma.  Edward’s eyes now frowned at me, and I immediately remembered his ability to steal my thoughts. 

“Oh … will you be staying long?”  She asked concerned, everything in the room seemed smaller.  I knew Bella and I had a public disliking for each other but this was different, her glare had purpose.  I was trying to be cordial but Bella always agitated me, she sort had this way of claiming things that didn’t belong to her. 

“This is my home … it was my home first, I am allowed to stay Bella … if I want.”  I said matter of fact, sometimes I honestly thought she believed that everything revolved around her, but honestly after two years to view the world I could easily tell her that it didn’t, the world revolved around none of us.  It was just ball of space in which we all existed. 

“Do you want to?”  She raised her eyebrow to me and I rolled my eyes in response.  I could smell my mother’s scent increasing rapidly throughout the room. 

“Leah dear!  Oh honey you are as beautiful as the sun and stars combined … traveling has brought out the best in you!”  She hugged me, she was right traveling had brought out the best in me, but something was missing. 

“Thanks mom and you look great too!” 

“Well I have to; you know what tonight is don’t you?”  She smiled at me and I thought to the calendar I could think of nothing special about April 3^rd. 

“Leah it is the biggest counsel meeting of the season, you know that!” She popped me lightly on the head, “you should come a lot of the elders have been asking about you!”  She beamed. 

“Sure,” I said sitting down again.  I didn’t want start an argument within my first few minutes of speaking of to her.  Those meeting were so boring or at least I used to think so, when I was nine, which was the last time I had ever attended one.

“Well tell me about everything you’ve seen and all the things you have done.” She sat down anxiously waiting for me to say something profound.   

“Haven’t you gotten any of my letters?”  I questioned, knowing that I had fully detailed all of my adventures to her, Seth, and Jacob and no one else. 

“Yeah, but Leah I just want to hear your voice.”  So I told her a couple of stories about some of the people I met. 

“I’ve been meaning to ask you honey, what made your destinations change drastically?”  I stretched I hadn’t talked this long for a while, as I raised my arms to the sky and arched my back I noticed to undeserving eyes fall across my body, hopefully I was the only one to notice.  Why must he examine me so, as if he were hungry for something?  It made me uncomfortable it made me remember who I was then, a monster.  That is not me not anymore.  I felt like the past was chasing me and I was running straight into a brick wall. 

“What do you mean?”  I cleared my throat in a desperately lame attempt to breathe with the uncomfortable tension in the room.   

“I mean at first you went to places like Paris and Italy, you made them sound so beautiful and glamorous.  Then your stops seemed to have a purpose, like when you went to South America and then Africa and the whole dynamic of your letters changed … I could tell that you had too.”  I smiled at her. 

“Yeah, I left the bitch in Rome and haven’t seen her since.” I smiled slightly.  “I have to admit there are some things I regret saying and doing when I was the bitch but I cannot change that I can only go forward and try to be humane … even if I’m not completely human.”  I sighed. 

“You are …” Edward said quietly from beside Bella she now glared at him, her looked advised him to chose his words wisely, “human.” 

“And don’t say bitch sweetheart it’s not lady like!”  I laughed mom said bitch.  Edward smirked too.  It was funny that she would say a word that she claimed to be unclean and not lady like, did she not consider herself a lady.  It was one of the random slips she made that I let slide.

“I want to help people all over the world, it gives me the most amazing feeling knowing that I am touching someone’s life …in a good way, a way worth remembering.  I don’t want to be the cause of pain.” I laughed, “This conversation is getting a little deep for my whole three hours of being home.  I’m going to go freshen up … it was nice seeing you all.”  I said politely

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Not A Little Girl Anymore

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the characters from Twilight!!

(A side note from Awakening the Elements before Ness’ 10th B-Day)

“I don’t need a babysitter anymore Embry, get out!” I screamed at the top of my lungs. Embry just sat on our couch and stared at me like I was losing my mind. “I’m serious! Mase isn’t here so you don’t have to be either!” I snapped. Normally, I loved for Embry to be in my space and around me, but he was being stupid. He said he viewed me as a kid sister and I wasn’t having it. I was so tired of this façade.

“Ness, you’re only eight years old,” he scoffed and went back to watching television,” I went to the door and opened it for him.

“Apparently you’re like eighty, I told you to get out!” I fumed and stomped my foot. In hindsight I realized my mannerisms were much like that of a tantrum.

“Edward, said he much rather I be here looking after you while he and Leah were gone. I thought you’d be happy, Rose has Mase and the two of us get to hang out for a week. I was excited about it until you started to freak out.” I closed the door in defeat he wasn’t going anywhere. I was tired of screaming and I needed a drink. As I walked past Em, I noticed that he looked me up and down like he always did. I was thankful I wore my black shortie shorts today, I’d paired it with a pink tank and I looked pretty good. I opened my Pepsi and sat in the chair to the side of him and watched him passively. He took his hair tie of his wrist and pulled his hair into a ponytail. God, I was so thankful he’d let his hair grow back. I slurped on my beverage and he smirked a little at me. He got up and approached me.

“I know how to make you stop pouting,” he threatened.

“Don’t Em, that stopped being funny when I was six!” I warned and put my foot up in an attempt to block him from what he was about to do.

“It stopped being funny to you, but to me it never gets old.” He moved my foot to the side and proceeded to tickle the hell out of me. I arched my back and started to squirm relentlessly. I hated that I was ticklish, it seemed like a weakness of sorts. I was breathless from laughter and couldn’t take anymore.

“Embry … please, you’re killing me,” I said between fits of laughter and he eventually stopped his merciless attack.

“I wouldn’t want to kill you,” he murmured softly as he placed a strand of my hair behind my ear. The look in his eyes said it all. I mirrored the feeling in my heart and what we’d grown into. Embry created this weird delicious twinge in the pit of my belly that I grown to acknowledge as love, desire, and want. It was nerve racking yet intriguing at the same time.

“Embry,” I breathed his name as I moved closer to him. I lips were now a breath away from his.

“I … I … should feed you.” He said as he dashed away from quickly. “Did you want me to cook or we could order something.” I shrugged off his question. I knew what I wanted I would never have.

Love Isn't Enough

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the characters from Twilight!!

“I’ll come back I promise,” she said as she worked on packing her last suitcase. I sat on her bed and watched as she walked from her closet to her bed with a purpose.

“For reason I don’t believe you Leah. Are things that bad here that you have to leave?” I asked and she paused for a second and stood in front of me with her hands on her hips.

“Jake, they were bad … that’s why I applied to college to get away and to better myself. At the time it made sense for me to go away.” She ran her fingers down the side of my face and cupped my cheek.

“You promised that we’d save each other.” I was pretty much accusing her of lying. This summer had been great. We’d connected in a way that I’d never thought possible. I’d known Leah for years and it wasn’t until now that I’d realized that we have so much in common. I would never forget of midnight strolls on the beach or my attempts of teaching her to play basketball. Leah was soft and a really deep thinker, not only that she was amazing in bed. She was everything that I’d ever seen myself wanting in a woman.

“Jacob, you’ve imprinted on Ness. I know you don’t feel like you love her now, but you will grow to love her and I’ll become a distant memory. I don’t know if … don’t see why I have to leave?” She stared at me with sadness in her eyes and it wasn’t until then that it dawned on me. This thing between us that was fueled by lust and salvation had morphed into love. That’s why I couldn’t let her go and that’s why she wanted to leave. She knew that in the end my heart would belong to another and she didn’t want her heart to get broken.

“Leah, I love you and right now you’re everything to me.” I got up and went to wrap my arms around her and she took a step back.

“That’s a lie Jacob. I’m actually shocked you’re standing here with me now. You’d already started to prefer the child’s company to mine and it’s okay, it’s not your fault really. Fate has just dealt me a shitty hand.” A tear dropped down her cheek and she quickly wiped it away.

“I do love you Leah,” I repeated and she scoffed. More of her tears fell and she swallowed hard.

“I love you too, but it’s not enough in this case. Love just isn’t enough.” She approached me quickly and placed her lips on mine, crushing against me. I gripped her tightly in a bear hug and tried to match her fervor. She twisted her fingers into my hair and cried as we continued to kiss. This was our goodbye, she said she’d be back but I knew better. She pulled away with me with a few quiet dry heaves and went back to packing.

“I have to go Jacob, but I’ll be back I promise.”