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The Pack
They’re on their honey moon now, committing all sorts of
unnatural acts. I was stuck here in the dark and rain trying to figure out how
she could love someone like Edward. She
didn’t think twice about me and now I’m here in my dad’s garage hiding from the
world. I’ve never been for crowds but
lately I’d been even more closed off. I
felt like a failure. I failed to make
her see that my love was so much better than his. I would’ve sacrificed my life for her and
part of me knew that I still would. I
cracked open one of my dad’s beers; I took the whole six pack out there with
me. I needed to mellow, I was tired of
phasing every night. I wanted to move on
but I was stuck. I drank the beer three
gulps and in it was gone. I crushed the
can in my hand and threw it to the ground.
I sunk down and rested my back against my car.
“Number two,” I mumbled as I started on my next can. Then I smelled it, a familiar perfume. It was sweet and belonged to a woman that the
whole world called bitter. “Go away,” I
griped. Everybody had been coming by to
cheer me up but I’d avoided them all.
Leah was unexpected, I figured that she wouldn’t have cared because she
couldn’t stand Bella. She was probably
just here to rub it in or to tell me that I’d dodged a bullet. She came around to the side of the car and
stood in front of me dripping wet with her hands on her hips. She wore a black summer dress that now clung
to her body. She huffed and rolled her
eyes and sat down beside me.
“What are you doing here?” I asked.
“I’d phased and got caught in the rain. Your house was the one I was closest to. I needed a place to hide out for a while,”
she explained. She grabbed one of my
beers without asking and opened it. “You
still moping over Bella?” She asked as she twisted her head only a little
barely giving me any eye contact.
“Fuck you Leah,” I whispered.
“That’d be a yes,” she chuckled. “You know I find it odd that everyone’s
treating you nicely about your heart being broken and you weren’t even with
Bella. I lost Sam and I’m a bitch for
not letting go. I hate to tell you this
Jacob but you’re acting like a bitch.” I
choked on my beer and burst into laughter.
“You may have a point,” I confessed.
“We should make a pack to get over this together. We are
both to damn good and hot to be suffering!” Leah raised her beer and clinked it
against mine. I looked at the small
smile on her face and the sadness in her eyes and I realized the same emotion
in me. She was right why should we both
suffer.
“I have something better that could heal us both,” I
murmured and scooted closer to her. I
needed to feel something other than hurt.
I found myself breathing heavier as I approached her and leaned my
forehead against hers.
“Jake, are you sure you wanna do this?” She whispered. There were no more words to be said, there
were only lips hers and mine touching.
This was much better than moping this was excellent. She twisted her hands in my hairs and
moaned. She crawled into my lap and
straddled me. I ran my hands along the sides of her body. I went to kiss her again but she pulled
away. “This is madness,” she exclaimed.
“I know but it feels go right?” She nodded, smirked and she
kissed me once more. “Yeah I guess there are worse guys to be insane over.” She
lifted her dress over her head. I’d seen
Leah naked in my head several times thinks to the damned mind link but in
person her flesh was far more alluring.
All she had on was her pink panties.
I think that I was mesmerized by the mere sight of her and a little
baffled at what I was supposed to do next.
“You’ve never seen a naked girl before have you? Sometimes I forget I’m a bit older than you.”
“Only by a couple of years,” murmured as I hesitantly
reached out and smoothed my hand over her stomach. I started circling the area around her belly
button. “You are really, really
beautiful Leah.” She scoffed and rolled her eyes.
“You’re only saying that because I’m practically naked in
your lap. If I hadn’t here come today
you’d still be thinking I’m a bitter harpy like the rest of them.” She
mumbled.
“I never thought like the rest of them. I did think it was wrong that you exposed all
of the other’s faults but I understood your heart Leah. Just like you understand how I’m feeling now.”
I ran my fingers along her jaw line. She
closed her eyes and enjoyed the feel of my touch. She opened her eyes and the fire of lust
raged within them.
“Lift your arms.” I did as she told me and she lifted my
shirt over my head. She wrapped herself
around me like a scarf. She sat in my
arms for the longest time chest to chest.
As our hearts beat together I felt as though my heart new it wasn’t
alone. I took her hand in my and watched
as I intertwined our fingers. I looked
at her and she was staring at me. “Nobody’s
ever been this gentle with me,” she whispered.
Her look saddened and my heart felt like it was breaking for her. I took her face in my hands and kissed her
again.
“How far did you want to go Leah?” I whispered the question
that was blaring in my head. We were
sitting here almost naked.
“All the way Jake, I don’t want to feel anything but you.”
“Right here?” I asked in disbelief.
“I don’t care. This
isn’t about romance, it’s about salvation of sorts. Save me Jacob.” She lay down on the rough floor and was ready
to give herself to me, but something about this moment this space was wrong. I
lifted her into my arms.
“Not here,” I murmured.
I carried her quickly back into my room.
Luckily my dad was still asleep and he didn’t catch a glimpse of her
nakedness. I lay her down on my bed and then removed my pants. I wanted to ask her if she was sure again,
but she removed her panties and playfully beckoned for me with her pointer
finger. I crawled up her body and placed
a little kiss on her nose. “I’ve never
done this before Leah.”
“I know … I won’t judge you too much.” She giggled as
she rubbed her nose against mine. “I
figured that’s why you’re hesitating too, must guys would’ve just stuck it in
by now.” I rolled my eyes at her and
kissed her. As we made out I maneuvered out
of my boxer briefs. Leah assisted me and
opening her legs wider but I stumbled to enter her. She broke our kiss and looked down.
“Here, let me,” she whispered. She took me in her hands and guided inside of
her. I entered her slowly and I watched
her face in wonder and admiration. She
moaned softly as I went deeper. She was
so wet and so tight. I was in awe of
her.
“Faster Jake,” she moaned.
“Please!” I nodded and began to
really moved within her. My nerves had
completely disappeared. I was being
fueled by my own lust. I thrust into her
aggressively and she called out to me.
All of the pain and hurt I’d felt over the past few days had turned into
raw lust. “Oh Jake,” she called out
again.” She pulled me l closer to her
and her nails dug into my shoulder blade as.
It hurt but the pleasure her body was giving me overrode that small
discomfort.
“Fuck,” uttered under my breath as we climbed higher. She wrapped her long legs around my waist and
locked her ankles. She began to grind
her pelvis to mine and a low groan hit the back of my throat. That felt fucking magnificent.
“Oh God,” she whimpered.
“Oh GOD, yes!” Her movements
began to quicken and I picked up the pace to match hers. She clenched her eyes shut and as she moved
faster still.
“Leah, open your eyes.
I want to see you when you come,” I forced myself in her harder. Tears were forming in her eyes.
“That’s it Jake, that’s it!
Just like that … fuck!”
“You’re so fucking beautiful Leah.” I went to speak again but I felt her legs
start to shake and she came gloriously, loudly, and all over me. Her undoing started ignited something within
me and I came seconds after her. She
closed her eyes and took at deep breath.
I kissed her forehead and watched as she regulated her breathing. There was nothing but sweat and mangled
sheets between us.
“Thank you Jake,” she whispered.
“The pleasure was all mine,” I said playfully as I slowly
pulled out of her. I lay at her side and
stroked her hair. “Do you … uh, do you
think we’ll do this again?” She arched
her eyebrow at me and chuckled.
“I’d hope that you’d have more in the tank … give me a
minute to rest.” She closed her eyes again and I kissed her lips.
“No I mean, like do you see this as just an one night
affair?” I asked. I didn’t want it to be
this was the best and the most normal I’d felt in a really long time.
“I really hadn’t thought that far into it Jake. I didn’t plan to come over and do this with
you tonight. It’s weird how fate twists
things sometimes. I can’t give you any
guarantees because I’m so messed up in the head, but I can give you right now …
this very moment.” She wrapped her arms around me and laid her head on my
chest. “You saved my life it’s the least
I can do.”
“It works both way Leah you saved mine too.”
