My Take on the Twilight Saga
First of let me say that I am a diehard Leah Clearwater fan first and
for most. I can’t get over how tragic
her story is … and it has been YEARS since I read the twilight saga. I just feel that she got the royal
shaft. I feel like she is the most
unique and special character in the whole series. I feel like any girl in her position would
have become a bitter harpy for at least a little while. I know that when I experienced my most recent
break up I became that way. I don’t like
the fact that she was simply “contented” by the end of the whole book. There should have been someone for her.
At the end of Breaking Dawn, Nahuel was introduced and his
tale was just as tragic as Leah’s story.
He was the cause of his mother’s death due his birth, and Leah caused
her father’s heart attack when she phased for the first time. They are both loyal and protective of their
siblings. They both hate themselves at
times. So I think that they would make
the perfect couple … that’s my future fanfics are all about them.
Now let’s talk crack shall we?
I think I first stumbled onto the Leah/Edward pairing when I
read Stephycats7785 story the oddity of us http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5451163/1/The-Oddity-of-Us
I was like OH WOW, this is an amazing idea!
To me Edward Cullen is the new prince charming with a dark
edge. He’s so full of angst and when he
loves he love hard. He’s so protective
and is a bit overbearing at times but he always means well.
I feel like Leah needs someone that is that
protective over her. She needs someone
that is consumed by her and someone that tells her that she’s beautiful, and
treats her like a princess. It seems
like in the saga nobody really wanted her around. Nobody really felt sorry for what she was
going through. I feel like if Edward was
single he would’ve fallen for her. That’s
why I ship them SO hard.
My favorite original couple from the series … that’s hard
but I think it would have to be Carlisle and Esme. It’s funny because I really don’t write about
them a lot but I feel they were just made for one another!
The rest of the couples’ countdown goes as follows:
2. Alice and Jasper
3. Rosalie and Emmett
4. Renesmee and Jacob
5. Bella and Edward
Teasers!
I plan to post the first chapter of all of my twilight stories here. Just so if you want a taste of my stories to see if you may like them you can test them out!
Disclaimer: All of this is fan fiction and I do not own the rights to the Twilight Saga or any of its characters. I just like to move them around like dolls.
Enjoy!
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How'd did we end up here. Ravenous locks so dark draped around my fingers. They feel like silk. I listen to her heartbeat. It's been so long since I've heard such a rapid pounding it resembles a beautiful erratic melody. I'm wrapped up in everything that is her. Her legs were still wrapped around my waist and I reach out to touch her face. Her eyelids begin to flutter rapidly as the reality of what we've done attacks her brain.
"Oh my God! Shit!" She shoved at me unable to budge me. I slowly removed myself from her. She scrambled to get out the bed and grabbed her pajamas from the drawer. She looked back at me. I smirked at her awkwardness and she just groaned. She rushed off into the bathroom and locked herself inside.
That's how this all started with a visit to the bathroom …
After the Volturi left my family to its own devices everyone's happily ever after started to fall into place. Bella and I had Renesmee. Jacob seemed content watching her grow up as well. Sue married and moved in with Charlie and Leah rented her mother's house. Everything was great … at first. It seemed Bella and I worked best as a family unit, meaning when we were in mother/father mode we were compatible and had everything to talk about, however once Renesmee began to grow up and was less and less underfoot it became clear that we'd drifted apart romantically. Bella was the first to bring up the idea of a separation. I was shocked she felt such a drastic need to get away from me.
"Maybe if we're apart we'll begin to remember all the things we love about each other," Bella cooed at me one night with my bags packed and by the door. "I don't want a divorce or anything. I just need some time to think. You should want that too," she explained with her arms crossed as she looked down at the floor. I really wished she'd have looked at me so I could see the emotion in her eyes. I wanted to believe that her eyes carried more compassion than her tone did.
"Fair enough," I struggled to respond past the emotion in my throat. I felt as though I'd been discarded from my own home. I threw my bags in my car I wasn't ready to go up to the main house yet. I didn't want to see the pity in everyone's faces. I looked up at the moon and then to my car. The night was mine to do with as I wish. I drove into town and peeped in the windows of a few businesses with their lights still on. I passed by one of the medical buildings and saw an unexpected familiar face. She was handing an older woman some paperwork to fill out. I decided to stop. I pulled into the parking lot and just stared. She wasn't doing anything remarkable, just typing something, but there was something different about her than what I'd seen before. She was happy or displaying an emotion very close to happiness. I'd never seen Leah smile or truly seem happy. I got out of my car. I didn't know what I was doing I just felt I needed to be closer. I wanted to approach her but I didn't know what I was going to say. I entered what seemed to be a outpatient medical facility of some kind. She watched as I approached her and wondered why on earth I was there. I placed my name on the little piece of paper in front of me and she arched her eyebrow.
"What are you doing here?" She took her clipboard and marked my name out in a black permanent marker and ushered me around to the patient side of her desk.
"Well ma'am I have this unbearably sore throat," I teased as I grabbed at my throat and she chuckled a little. I was surprised she thought it was funny again, normally she was sort of dry and nasty when it came to our kind. I wouldn't have cared too much if she had been annoyed to see me. I just needed a familiar face.
"Aw, well have you tried cough drops, tea, or chloraseptic spray?" She asked and attempted to carry a serious look on her face but failed horribly. "What are you doing here bloodsucker?" She whispered.
"I told you!" I protested. She leaned back in her chair and glared at me. She crossed her arms and arched her eyebrow.
"Okay, I just moved out of my house," I explained. "That's not completely true I was kicked out."
"Oh God, she told you!" Leah gasped. "I told that little brat not to tell and to let Bella confess to her own sins!" Now I was completely confused. As Leah looked at me she realized I didn't have a clue what she was talking about. Her mind quickly ran through a conversation Renesmee had with Leah. My lovely wife had cheated on me and my daughter walked in on them. Leah told her to stay out of it and let the chips fall where they may.
"Why did you tell my daughter to lie to me?" My tone was raised and all of the patrons in the lobby were now looking our way. I got up to leave and Leah grabbed my hand.
"Hey wait, I get off in like ten minutes … if you weren't in a rush to get somewhere." I frowned at her. I couldn't believe she was being so decent to me. I guess she felt bad for inadvertently causing my heart to break further than it already had. I had to admit it was something about her big brown eyes staring at me in that way that made me cave.
"Okay," I went back to my car to wait for her to get off.
I sat on Leah's couch as she tinkered around in the kitchen. I looked around her mother's home it was a one story residence with plenty of pictures of the Clearwater family. I could tell that Leah wasn't pressed on making any changes to the home. She was nostalgic and sentimental and for some reason I'd never pegged her for the type. She came back into the living room still wearing her peach colored scrubs but with a beer in tow. She used her teeth to open the bottle. She balled her legs up underneath her and shifted so she could study my face.
"I would've offered you one but … you know you're undead," she muttered and tapped her fingers along the glass.
"Yep, that I am." This conversation was going nowhere fast. My face mirrored her discomfort and then I released a deep and unnecessary breath before I returned my gaze to her.
"Its' weird having you in my space," she mused as she examined my face. "It's not as bad as I thought it'd be though." I knew she wasn't joking she was mesmerized by me, like a child with a toy. I got up and my first thought was to leave but there was something about this place that made me feel … warm. "I'm not the type of person to say sorry, but I really didn't mean for you to find out about your wife this way."
"That is an apology of sorts." I smirked at her as I sat back down beside her. "I know you didn't mean to tell me."
"Good." She seemed to breathe easier and took another sip of her beer. "So my day was interesting," she started to blab on about her day. I knew she wasn't the self centered kind, she was doing this to distract me from my own thoughts.
"Yep the old woman used the seat as a toilet and straight pissed right in front of me!" She shook her head and burst into laughter.
"So what did you do?" She shrugged and chuckled.
"I treated the woman with some respect! I closed down my station took her straight to the back where I worked with Sandy to get her cleaned up and a fresh depends. I wasn't going to laugh at her that could be me one day. However, after the fact … it is a little amusing." We both laughed and just as she thought about getting another beer I whipped into the kitchen and got one for her. I didn't want her to stop talking. I didn't want her to stop smiling or doing whatever she was doing to me with those eyes.
"Could that be you one day, Leah? Have you begun to age again?" Something about the statement caused her mood to sober, but only slightly.
"Nope, I'm still nineteen when I should be just about thirty," she grouched as she laid back and placed her head on the pillow. I moved and sat down on the rug. I liked eye contact when I was talking to her.
"Most women would kill for your problem," I said as I took the beer in her hand and placed it on the table behind me.
"Yeah, they probably had the chance to have a child. I always wanted a baby, a little boy, but fate had other plans and took my plans and gave them to someone else." She closed her eyes and tried to push her hurt back. It had been years but she still felt the sting like it happened yesterday.
"I can relate," I murmured and her watery brown eyes met mind.
"I'm sorry, I brought you here to cheer you up not have you wrapped up in my ancient drama," she hopped up and stretched. "I need to get ready for bed. Feel free to stay longer I just have to get out of these work clothes." I watched as she started down the hall.
"Actually, if it is alright with you could I stay here? Until I process everything that's going on in my head, I just don't really want to be around my family right now." I hated to admit it but it's the truth. Leah pursed her lips as she gave my request some thought.
"Sure, I mean it's the least I can do for what I said earlier." She continued down the hall to her bedroom gathered her things and ended up in the bathroom. I took the opportunity to look closely at some of the pictures in the house. A lot of the pictures were Sam and Leah together when they were younger. I wondered why she never took them down. It couldn't be healthy to be reminded of what some would consider a hurtful past. After a few minutes I was pulled from my musings and my mind began to focus on something else. The shower, Leah cut the water on and she pulled her shirt over her head. I hated when my mind became captivated by something like this it made me feel so crude and dirty. I shut my eyes in an attempt to shut out the visions from Leah's mind, however the visions just seemed to become more vivid. She was so simple yet sexy in her black bra and panties. Her body was full in the right places. She quickly pulled her panties off and unclasped her bra. There she was gloriously naked in living color … in my mind, yet close enough to touch, and I wanted to. It'd been years since I'd seen a naked woman and Leah's body was showing me exactly what I'd been missing. I sat back down on the couch. Since I couldn't ignore what was happening in the room two doors down the hall. I decided to enjoy it. What was the harm in watching as she enjoyed the steaming hot water as it caressed some of her more intimate parts?
She turned around and backed into the stream running from her shower faucet. I watched as water wet her hair then she closed her eyes, and everything went black. "Shit, no!" I was shocked by my own words. I wanted the visions back and apparently so did the bulge in my pants. After a few moments Leah opened her eyes and I had the pleasure of watching her as she massaged her soap in to her glorious copper skin. She sighed a little as inhaled the scent of her body wash. This went on for what seemed like an eternity and caused my slight bulge to become a fully erect problem. There was no way to adjust the situation I now had in my pants the only thing I could do was surrender to it, but how and where? One thing was for sure I'd never been in this situation before. My body has never responded to a woman when I didn't want it to. I quickly went outside and hopped back in my car. It seemed like the best place to fix this mess. I hopped in the back and closed my eyes and focused on the images that were now so prominent in my head. A plump succulent soap breast with perky erect nipples and a very plump behind all drenched in a flawless light caramel complexion. It didn't take long for me to accomplish my goal. I took one of my shirts out of my duffle and cleaned myself up and returned back in the house.
I entered the house with one of my duffel bags and Leah was sitting back on her couch with a book at her side. She looked at me and scrunched her nose up. She smelt something different about me but she wasn't going to say anything about it. She hopped up and took my bag and led me down the hall way.
"You can stay in Seth's old room," she murmured as she opened the door and placed the bag on the bed. "I know you don't sleep but I figured you'd want some solitude." She hitched her grey shorts up and pulled down her camisole. I shoved my hands in my pockets as I tried to discretely take in her curves.
"Actually, I'd rather just stay up with you. I don't want to be alone with my thoughts. My mind is so dark and dreary right now." She looked at me and nibbled on her lips as she mulled over my statement.
"I was getting ready to head into my room. I have to work tomorrow," she explained and I nodded and sat down on the bed. It was then that I noticed that she'd never cut the light on. We were standing in this room with only the moon's dim light shining through the sheer curtains. I looked into her eyes and I knew I was rebounding hard. At least I figured that's what it was. Maybe I was just having a moment of lust because Leah had spared me a few kind words. I don't know what the reason was but I was drawn in. She gave me a slow little grin and looked away from me.
"I guess you could chill in my room for a little while … until I fall asleep." She exited the room and I was quick on her heels. I watched as she crawled into bed and pulled the comforter up over her body and snuggled in.
"Cozy?" I asked as I sat down at the foot of her bed. I didn't want to get too close. I wasn't sure what she considered indecent.
"Very," she murmured into her pillow. A moment of silence hit us and she dragged herself to a sitting position. "You know if you don't want me to fall asleep you better say something. I did just work a thirteen hour shift." She patted the area of her bed. I saw in her mind that she wanted to rub my shoulders to show me comfort. I hesitantly did as she requested. I actually shuddered when she touched me. It actually felt good as she kneaded my shoulders.
"So was it Jacob?" I asked.
"I don't know. I didn't let Nessie tell me because I didn't want to be too involved. I just comforted her like I'm comforting you now," she murmured. "I know how it feels to be betrayed. Sam slept with Emily before he left me. I couldn't have gone back to him even if he had the power to break the imprint. It's just something about knowing that he viewed someone else in that way. I saw no one else but him. I don't know if I'll ever want another man."
"That's how I'm feeling now. I don't think that I'll ever be able to go back to her knowing that she's lain with another." I didn't mention the other part of Leah's statement because part of me wanted to turn around and convince her that she could view me just as she viewed Sam.
"You'll heal Edward. Your daughter will help you too. When do you plan to tell her about moving out?"
"I'm sure that Bella's already told her," I muttered dryly. "I don't want to talk about this. Can you just," I leaned back and wrapped her arms around me. This was far better. "Your warmth is like a blanket Leah can you just hold me until you fall asleep."
3. Rosalie and Emmett
4. Renesmee and Jacob
5. Bella and Edward
Teasers!
I plan to post the first chapter of all of my twilight stories here. Just so if you want a taste of my stories to see if you may like them you can test them out!
Disclaimer: All of this is fan fiction and I do not own the rights to the Twilight Saga or any of its characters. I just like to move them around like dolls.
Enjoy!
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How'd did we end up here. Ravenous locks so dark draped around my fingers. They feel like silk. I listen to her heartbeat. It's been so long since I've heard such a rapid pounding it resembles a beautiful erratic melody. I'm wrapped up in everything that is her. Her legs were still wrapped around my waist and I reach out to touch her face. Her eyelids begin to flutter rapidly as the reality of what we've done attacks her brain.
"Oh my God! Shit!" She shoved at me unable to budge me. I slowly removed myself from her. She scrambled to get out the bed and grabbed her pajamas from the drawer. She looked back at me. I smirked at her awkwardness and she just groaned. She rushed off into the bathroom and locked herself inside.
That's how this all started with a visit to the bathroom …
After the Volturi left my family to its own devices everyone's happily ever after started to fall into place. Bella and I had Renesmee. Jacob seemed content watching her grow up as well. Sue married and moved in with Charlie and Leah rented her mother's house. Everything was great … at first. It seemed Bella and I worked best as a family unit, meaning when we were in mother/father mode we were compatible and had everything to talk about, however once Renesmee began to grow up and was less and less underfoot it became clear that we'd drifted apart romantically. Bella was the first to bring up the idea of a separation. I was shocked she felt such a drastic need to get away from me.
"Maybe if we're apart we'll begin to remember all the things we love about each other," Bella cooed at me one night with my bags packed and by the door. "I don't want a divorce or anything. I just need some time to think. You should want that too," she explained with her arms crossed as she looked down at the floor. I really wished she'd have looked at me so I could see the emotion in her eyes. I wanted to believe that her eyes carried more compassion than her tone did.
"Fair enough," I struggled to respond past the emotion in my throat. I felt as though I'd been discarded from my own home. I threw my bags in my car I wasn't ready to go up to the main house yet. I didn't want to see the pity in everyone's faces. I looked up at the moon and then to my car. The night was mine to do with as I wish. I drove into town and peeped in the windows of a few businesses with their lights still on. I passed by one of the medical buildings and saw an unexpected familiar face. She was handing an older woman some paperwork to fill out. I decided to stop. I pulled into the parking lot and just stared. She wasn't doing anything remarkable, just typing something, but there was something different about her than what I'd seen before. She was happy or displaying an emotion very close to happiness. I'd never seen Leah smile or truly seem happy. I got out of my car. I didn't know what I was doing I just felt I needed to be closer. I wanted to approach her but I didn't know what I was going to say. I entered what seemed to be a outpatient medical facility of some kind. She watched as I approached her and wondered why on earth I was there. I placed my name on the little piece of paper in front of me and she arched her eyebrow.
"What are you doing here?" She took her clipboard and marked my name out in a black permanent marker and ushered me around to the patient side of her desk.
"Well ma'am I have this unbearably sore throat," I teased as I grabbed at my throat and she chuckled a little. I was surprised she thought it was funny again, normally she was sort of dry and nasty when it came to our kind. I wouldn't have cared too much if she had been annoyed to see me. I just needed a familiar face.
"Aw, well have you tried cough drops, tea, or chloraseptic spray?" She asked and attempted to carry a serious look on her face but failed horribly. "What are you doing here bloodsucker?" She whispered.
"I told you!" I protested. She leaned back in her chair and glared at me. She crossed her arms and arched her eyebrow.
"Okay, I just moved out of my house," I explained. "That's not completely true I was kicked out."
"Oh God, she told you!" Leah gasped. "I told that little brat not to tell and to let Bella confess to her own sins!" Now I was completely confused. As Leah looked at me she realized I didn't have a clue what she was talking about. Her mind quickly ran through a conversation Renesmee had with Leah. My lovely wife had cheated on me and my daughter walked in on them. Leah told her to stay out of it and let the chips fall where they may.
"Why did you tell my daughter to lie to me?" My tone was raised and all of the patrons in the lobby were now looking our way. I got up to leave and Leah grabbed my hand.
"Hey wait, I get off in like ten minutes … if you weren't in a rush to get somewhere." I frowned at her. I couldn't believe she was being so decent to me. I guess she felt bad for inadvertently causing my heart to break further than it already had. I had to admit it was something about her big brown eyes staring at me in that way that made me cave.
"Okay," I went back to my car to wait for her to get off.
I sat on Leah's couch as she tinkered around in the kitchen. I looked around her mother's home it was a one story residence with plenty of pictures of the Clearwater family. I could tell that Leah wasn't pressed on making any changes to the home. She was nostalgic and sentimental and for some reason I'd never pegged her for the type. She came back into the living room still wearing her peach colored scrubs but with a beer in tow. She used her teeth to open the bottle. She balled her legs up underneath her and shifted so she could study my face.
"I would've offered you one but … you know you're undead," she muttered and tapped her fingers along the glass.
"Yep, that I am." This conversation was going nowhere fast. My face mirrored her discomfort and then I released a deep and unnecessary breath before I returned my gaze to her.
"Its' weird having you in my space," she mused as she examined my face. "It's not as bad as I thought it'd be though." I knew she wasn't joking she was mesmerized by me, like a child with a toy. I got up and my first thought was to leave but there was something about this place that made me feel … warm. "I'm not the type of person to say sorry, but I really didn't mean for you to find out about your wife this way."
"That is an apology of sorts." I smirked at her as I sat back down beside her. "I know you didn't mean to tell me."
"Good." She seemed to breathe easier and took another sip of her beer. "So my day was interesting," she started to blab on about her day. I knew she wasn't the self centered kind, she was doing this to distract me from my own thoughts.
"Yep the old woman used the seat as a toilet and straight pissed right in front of me!" She shook her head and burst into laughter.
"So what did you do?" She shrugged and chuckled.
"I treated the woman with some respect! I closed down my station took her straight to the back where I worked with Sandy to get her cleaned up and a fresh depends. I wasn't going to laugh at her that could be me one day. However, after the fact … it is a little amusing." We both laughed and just as she thought about getting another beer I whipped into the kitchen and got one for her. I didn't want her to stop talking. I didn't want her to stop smiling or doing whatever she was doing to me with those eyes.
"Could that be you one day, Leah? Have you begun to age again?" Something about the statement caused her mood to sober, but only slightly.
"Nope, I'm still nineteen when I should be just about thirty," she grouched as she laid back and placed her head on the pillow. I moved and sat down on the rug. I liked eye contact when I was talking to her.
"Most women would kill for your problem," I said as I took the beer in her hand and placed it on the table behind me.
"Yeah, they probably had the chance to have a child. I always wanted a baby, a little boy, but fate had other plans and took my plans and gave them to someone else." She closed her eyes and tried to push her hurt back. It had been years but she still felt the sting like it happened yesterday.
"I can relate," I murmured and her watery brown eyes met mind.
"I'm sorry, I brought you here to cheer you up not have you wrapped up in my ancient drama," she hopped up and stretched. "I need to get ready for bed. Feel free to stay longer I just have to get out of these work clothes." I watched as she started down the hall.
"Actually, if it is alright with you could I stay here? Until I process everything that's going on in my head, I just don't really want to be around my family right now." I hated to admit it but it's the truth. Leah pursed her lips as she gave my request some thought.
"Sure, I mean it's the least I can do for what I said earlier." She continued down the hall to her bedroom gathered her things and ended up in the bathroom. I took the opportunity to look closely at some of the pictures in the house. A lot of the pictures were Sam and Leah together when they were younger. I wondered why she never took them down. It couldn't be healthy to be reminded of what some would consider a hurtful past. After a few minutes I was pulled from my musings and my mind began to focus on something else. The shower, Leah cut the water on and she pulled her shirt over her head. I hated when my mind became captivated by something like this it made me feel so crude and dirty. I shut my eyes in an attempt to shut out the visions from Leah's mind, however the visions just seemed to become more vivid. She was so simple yet sexy in her black bra and panties. Her body was full in the right places. She quickly pulled her panties off and unclasped her bra. There she was gloriously naked in living color … in my mind, yet close enough to touch, and I wanted to. It'd been years since I'd seen a naked woman and Leah's body was showing me exactly what I'd been missing. I sat back down on the couch. Since I couldn't ignore what was happening in the room two doors down the hall. I decided to enjoy it. What was the harm in watching as she enjoyed the steaming hot water as it caressed some of her more intimate parts?
She turned around and backed into the stream running from her shower faucet. I watched as water wet her hair then she closed her eyes, and everything went black. "Shit, no!" I was shocked by my own words. I wanted the visions back and apparently so did the bulge in my pants. After a few moments Leah opened her eyes and I had the pleasure of watching her as she massaged her soap in to her glorious copper skin. She sighed a little as inhaled the scent of her body wash. This went on for what seemed like an eternity and caused my slight bulge to become a fully erect problem. There was no way to adjust the situation I now had in my pants the only thing I could do was surrender to it, but how and where? One thing was for sure I'd never been in this situation before. My body has never responded to a woman when I didn't want it to. I quickly went outside and hopped back in my car. It seemed like the best place to fix this mess. I hopped in the back and closed my eyes and focused on the images that were now so prominent in my head. A plump succulent soap breast with perky erect nipples and a very plump behind all drenched in a flawless light caramel complexion. It didn't take long for me to accomplish my goal. I took one of my shirts out of my duffle and cleaned myself up and returned back in the house.
I entered the house with one of my duffel bags and Leah was sitting back on her couch with a book at her side. She looked at me and scrunched her nose up. She smelt something different about me but she wasn't going to say anything about it. She hopped up and took my bag and led me down the hall way.
"You can stay in Seth's old room," she murmured as she opened the door and placed the bag on the bed. "I know you don't sleep but I figured you'd want some solitude." She hitched her grey shorts up and pulled down her camisole. I shoved my hands in my pockets as I tried to discretely take in her curves.
"Actually, I'd rather just stay up with you. I don't want to be alone with my thoughts. My mind is so dark and dreary right now." She looked at me and nibbled on her lips as she mulled over my statement.
"I was getting ready to head into my room. I have to work tomorrow," she explained and I nodded and sat down on the bed. It was then that I noticed that she'd never cut the light on. We were standing in this room with only the moon's dim light shining through the sheer curtains. I looked into her eyes and I knew I was rebounding hard. At least I figured that's what it was. Maybe I was just having a moment of lust because Leah had spared me a few kind words. I don't know what the reason was but I was drawn in. She gave me a slow little grin and looked away from me.
"I guess you could chill in my room for a little while … until I fall asleep." She exited the room and I was quick on her heels. I watched as she crawled into bed and pulled the comforter up over her body and snuggled in.
"Cozy?" I asked as I sat down at the foot of her bed. I didn't want to get too close. I wasn't sure what she considered indecent.
"Very," she murmured into her pillow. A moment of silence hit us and she dragged herself to a sitting position. "You know if you don't want me to fall asleep you better say something. I did just work a thirteen hour shift." She patted the area of her bed. I saw in her mind that she wanted to rub my shoulders to show me comfort. I hesitantly did as she requested. I actually shuddered when she touched me. It actually felt good as she kneaded my shoulders.
"So was it Jacob?" I asked.
"I don't know. I didn't let Nessie tell me because I didn't want to be too involved. I just comforted her like I'm comforting you now," she murmured. "I know how it feels to be betrayed. Sam slept with Emily before he left me. I couldn't have gone back to him even if he had the power to break the imprint. It's just something about knowing that he viewed someone else in that way. I saw no one else but him. I don't know if I'll ever want another man."
"That's how I'm feeling now. I don't think that I'll ever be able to go back to her knowing that she's lain with another." I didn't mention the other part of Leah's statement because part of me wanted to turn around and convince her that she could view me just as she viewed Sam.
"You'll heal Edward. Your daughter will help you too. When do you plan to tell her about moving out?"
"I'm sure that Bella's already told her," I muttered dryly. "I don't want to talk about this. Can you just," I leaned back and wrapped her arms around me. This was far better. "Your warmth is like a blanket Leah can you just hold me until you fall asleep."
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One Month Later …
I sat in Leah's apartment glaring at the legal document on her coffee table. She hadn't come home from work yet. I was enraged by the day I'd had. It took a lot as a man to admit that you weren't enough to satisfy your wife. I had made the decision to finalize cutting ties with my wife. I thought she'd be agreeable and sign the papers but that was not the case. She felt that we still just needed time. I didn't get it she was the one that had broken our vows, how could she think that what we had could be salvaged? I picked up the papers and looked at the area where her signature should now be. My thoughts were distracted by Leah coming in. She looked a little alarmed by my disposition.
"I'm guessing today didn't go well?" She said as she placed her Chinese food on the table.
"She wouldn't sign," I answered and then covered my face with my hands. Leah sat beside me and rubbed my back.
"I told you she wouldn't," she snickered I shot a glance her way and couldn't help but chuckle too. "You belong to her Edward. She still loves you in a way; at the very least she loves the idea of you." Leah shrugged as she started to fix her plate. I got up to get her a Dasani.
"She cheated on me she doesn't get to choose," I stated bluntly.
"Don't tell me that, tell her," Leah offered before stuffing her mouth.
"You don't think I tried! She told me in so many words that I left her no choice because I stopped pleasing her physically," I confessed and Leah looked at me shocked.
"Why did you do that?" She asked. "A physical bond between a man and a woman is just as important as a mental one Edward. I mean you vampires don't require sleep so you can't say that you didn't have the time to please your wife." I thought back and tried to pinpoint how we grew apart I wasn't the only one that created the distanced. It seemed that we'd both tried to reconnect at times but we were never on the same page about it at the same time.
"We just grew apart I don't think either of us should really be blamed for that," I murmured. "I do hold Bella responsible for her infidelity though." Leah sighed and shook her head while she picked at her food. The mood had soured and Leah was trying think of how I could compromise with Bella.
"What if you evened the score? You could find some random stranger to give your vampire love to and then you and Bella can start over." I looked at her like she'd lost her mind and she knew it was a far stretch.
"Ooookay … well, what about if you two went to therapy. Marriage counseling is supposed to be very affective."
"Leah stop. Don't you think that I've thought about counseling? I would do it if I thought it would work." I got up and started pacing in her living room I wanted to talk about something else.
"Why haven't you taken any of the pictures of you and Sam down? Are you hoping that he'll come back to you?" I picked up one of the pictures where he was holding her close and looked as if he wanted to kiss her. I couldn't blame him she looked very appealing in the picture. Leah put her food down and went to retrieve the picture I was holding.
"No, I don't hold out any hope of that ever happening. Just because we didn't work out it doesn't mean I hate him. He had no real control over what he did to me." She caressed the image of her ex lover and placed it back on the shelf and I picked the picture back up again.
"Having these pictures surrounding you isn't helping you move forward. Don't you want to move on Leah and find somebody new?" Leah went to take the picture back from me and I held on with a firm grip.
"I'm content the way my life is Edward!" She snapped.
"How could you be Leah? All you've done is sacrifice and what do you have to show for it. You live here alone. All you do is work and come home you have no one to love and no one to share your life with! Your life has pretty much ended before it began and all these pictures are just reminders of that." She tugged on the frame once more as I released it and the picture went crashing onto the floor broken glass was now everywhere. Leah glared at me but said nothing she went to kitchen to get a broom. I didn't know how to explain my behavior. I don't know why I lashed out at the one person who'd given me what I needed to heal. She kneeled down and started cleaning up the mess I made. I kneeled down to and started picking up the pieces.
"Don't! You've done enough Edward," she whispered forcefully. Tears gently streamed down her face as she picked up the picture with shaky hands. "I'm doing the best I can to move on and keep my sanity. I'm sorry if you don't understand."
"No, Leah I'm sorry … I shouldn't," I started to speak and she held her hand up to stop me.
"I really think you've said enough. Tonight should probably be your last night here with me." Leah word's weren't mean but I'd hurt her and she wouldn't let me apologize. I watched as she poured the glass into the trash can and disappeared down the hall. I felt like a real imbecile I plopped down on the couch and noticed that she left the picture just laying there on the floor. I quickly picked it up and placed it on her counter in the kitchen. I heard as she cut her shower on. I groaned, not again. She began to disrobe and it meant that it was time for me to find something to distract myself. I didn't want tonight to go by and for Leah not to know how sorry I was. I didn't say those words to hurt her but I needed to finish what I'd started. I went to go to my room when I realized that I couldn't see Leah. She had closed her eyes and she was sobbing. I entered her room and expected her to be in there balled up somewhere she was in the bathroom and I pounded on the door.
"What?" She yelled with tears in her voice. I hesitantly opened the door and saw her bawled up in the shower with water just pouring over her naked body. She hadn't even bothered to close the shower curtain. "GET OUT!" She screamed at the top of lungs but her words had no affect on me. I kneeled down beside her and she looked away from me.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you Leah. The only reason I said those things is because you are an amazing woman and you deserve better than to live off a bunch of old memories. I think you can have anything in this world that you want if you reached out and grabbed it. I don't want you to settle," I murmured and I went to touch her face and she immediately let me know that was a bad idea.
"No, I can't have anything I want Edward. Sam himself is proof of that. I don't want anything or everything. The things I wanted in life were simple I wanted to be loved by a man; I wanted to start a life with him, and give him children. Somebody else has my dream." She sobbed for a minute but then stopped herself. "You are right though, I do live in my memories because before all of this supernatural shit I had everything I wanted but no one can bring my happiness back." I wanted to reach out to her but I knew how successful I'd been with that the last time. So instead I took off my shoes and socks and joined her in the tub fully clothed and wrapped my arms around her. At first she looked at me as if I was weird but then her eyes softened. I was wrapped up in our eye contact that I'd almost forgotten that she was completely naked. It was the first time I'd seen all of Leah. I didn't just see all of her body; I saw all of her emotion, her strength, her fury, and her pain. Her both lip was trembling I didn't know if it was because she was going to cry again or if it was because my body temperature was making her cold. I smoothed my thumb against her bottom lip and she gasped at the chill of my touch. I watched as the look in her eyes went from something fearful to something more dark and needy. She pressed her nakedness against me and crushed her lips against mine. She used her hands to cradle my face as she made our kiss more passionate. I could feel the sting of her warm tears still streamed down her face. After a moment she broke our kiss much to my dismay.
"I'm sorry," she whispered as her eye examined me with fear and hunger. She shook her head as she searched for clarity. She quickly removed herself from her tub and wrapped her body in a white towel I followed her out of the tub and into her bedroom. She was waiting for me to leave so that she could change but I had no plans on leaving. I had already seen all of her and had no plans on leaving. I approached her from behind and smoothed my hands along her shoulders and then her arms.
"This isn't happening," she murmured as I turned her around. "I made a mistake and got caught up in my feelings."
"You really didn't mean to kiss me? You're telling me that you've never thought about doing that before?" I asked and she glared at me a little.
"You're a little smug somebody," she murmured. I shook my head.
"No, I just know the inner workings of your mind. I know what you want right now. You may feel a tad conflicted but every fiber of your body being is tingling … to hear you mind say it anyway. You're wondering what I'm going to do next and you really want me closer." I snaked one of my arms around her so that our bodies were flushed against each other. I went to kiss her and she pulled back.
"Come on Leah, you want this. I know I've wanted this for quite some time now." She had the nerve to look at me alarmed.
"You want me? Edward you're just rebounding which is completely natural but pointless because this isn't going anywhere," Leah countered but she hadn't attempted to move from my grasped.
"I thought about that too, but being around you everyday just confirmed to me that Bella and I were done. I need you Leah because there's something you provide by just being by my side. Whatever it is you possess I need all of it to consume me. So please give it to me Leah," I murmured before I attempted to kiss her once more. This time she obliged me as she lifted her arms and wrapped them around my neck her towel fell and once again I was surrounding by her glorious smooth copper skin and voluptuous curves. I backed us toward the bed and then lifted her gingerly onto it.
"You're so beautiful Leah," I murmured as I discarded my drenched clothes and threw them across the room. Now we were both exposed. I took the time to allow my hands to explore Leah's perfection. She closed her eyes and marveled at my hands chilly seduction. She compared it to ice being dripped down her chest, circling her nipples, and slowly trailing down her abdomen.
"Lower," she groaned with a needy hunger. "Please." I leaned down and kissed her and then moved my lips and tongue lower. She moaned as soon as my lips grazed against her right nipple and I began to suck on it. The aroma of her arousal began to fill the room and began to sang to me on a bewitchingly. I was fully excited and ready to please her. I dragged my body over top of hers and slowly sunk into her womanly sea.
"Edward," she called for me. I didn't think it were possible for me to feel anymore turned on but sound of my name coming from her lips that way cause me to possess her hungrily.
"That's right Leah call out to me I want hear it," I groaned in her ear as I began to pick up speed. Between Leah's eratic breathing and moans she peppers kisses along my check and jaw line. Her gently touch cascade down my shoulder blades and spine.
"Oh Edward I'm close," she cried, tears were literally in her eyes and I did my best to give her what her mind asked for. Love me Edward … I want to give you all of me. Her mind chanted over and over again.
"That's right baby give it to me!" I groaned and thrust inside her harder causing her to climax beautifully. Leah's eye clenched shut as her mind revealed something to her. It was the same thing I'd begun to feel for her the very first night I stumbled into her work place. I was in love with her and she felt the same way about me. It was crazy to think of how we got here.
Ravenous locks so dark draped around my fingers. They feel like silk. I listen to her heartbeat. It's been so long since I've heard such a rapid pounding it resembles a beautiful erratic melody. I'm wrapped up in everything that is her. Her legs were still wrapped around my waist and I reach out to touch her face. Her eyelids begin to flutter rapidly as the reality of what we've done attacks her brain.
The Thin Line
Word vomit, lately I'd become famous for it and now it seemed I'd pissed off the vampires too. I seriously couldn't care less. I stormed out of their house and away from their stupidity. My first thought was to go home but to be honest there was just as much brainlessness there. My life had been ripped to shreds and I was surrounded by idiots. Jacob Black was an idiot he was determined to pick at the scab that was Bella Swan. I didn't understand why people placated Jacob so much; he was mourning a relationship that he'd never had. True the girl admitted to liking him but not enough to date him, that when you say let it go, and move on. The pack is so sympathetic to his faux break up but when it comes to be me it's like they think I deserved it.
"You did deserve it and far worse," he said and I kept my back to him as I sat on the cliff. I knew his sent and it made sense that he'd be mad. I had after all just called his precious Bella a bitch for what she'd done to Jacob.
"It's the mind rapist here to defend his woman. I wish you'd spare me there's nothing you can say to make me apologize. Point blank your wife is the most selfish woman I've ever met and she's a hurtful bitch that pretends to be so sweet and innocent. At least I'm true to who I am!" I got up and finally turned to him and looked in his eyes that were as black as the night sky. Maybe he'd come here to kill me. Stupid leech he should know that I'm not scared of death. I was dead inside now anyway.
"You know nothing about her! You can't judge someone you've barely talked to," Edward fumed and bared his teeth. "I don't ever want you near her again. Don't place one of your damned paws our property!" I merely arched my eyebrow at him and laughed.
"You seriously think I want to be there?" I laughed at him outright. "Tell me. How can you even think that the way Bella does Jacob is fair to him? How is it fair to YOU? Plus, I'm sure that you didn't want her to go through with this pregnancy yet she's doing it … who is she doing it for? It's not you, so I'm guess she's doing it to make herself happy. By definition being selfish means lacking consideration for others and only being concerned with one's own personal pleasure, so you tell me, doesn't that describe the way your beloved Bella is acting? Isn't it Edward?" I yelled. He scoffed and went to walk away from me. "That's right leech leave and don't you say one damned word because you know I'm right!" As soon as I finished my sentence he was right in my face.
"The only reason I'm leaving is because no matter how vile your words are you are a female and I'm trying to respect you. You're pushing me though," he whispered and for some reason him being this close made my skin crawl but not in the way it should. For some reason him being this close made me really focus in on everything that was appealing about Edward Cullen. He snorted and gave me a vicious half smile.
"Don't do me any favors leech," I rolled my eyes and turned away from him. I tried to focus on my distain for everything he was. Not his alluring stare or his slender yet strong build. God, how long had it been since I'd gotten any? This was really the wrong time to be horny. Someone once said that there was a thin line between love and hate. Who said that anyway?
"It was started by a group in the seventies," he mumbled and I looked at him confused for a minute before remembering his abilities. "Bella wants to give the child a fighting chance that's not selfish," he defended his bride once more.
"What about the way she treats Jacob?" He said nothing and I knew that he agreed with me. I crossed my arms I wanted to hear him say it.
"He lets her treat him that way," Edward mumbled.
"Yeah and I think that Jacob's a dickless punk for it but that's not what I asked. Bella is treating Jacob like shit and you all act like that's okay … it's not okay!" Edward looked at me and it was like he was trying to extract something from my thoughts.
"Why do you care so much?" Edward finally asked as he sat where I was when he first got here. I followed suit and sat down beside him. Even though he was mad at me it was the first time someone was actually curious about my thoughts. Everyone else hated whenever I spoke or was in the same space as them really.
"Jake reminds me of myself a little bit. When all this stuff started happening and once Sam finally told me about the imprint he still wanted to be around me and he wanted Emily there too. I couldn't deal it ripped something out of me and made me feel." I stopped abruptly and shot and glare toward Edward who black eyes had begun to stare at me with pity. "I don't wanna talk about this shit."
"You probably should, it's probably a good release," Edward murmured and I smirked.
"You know what a good release is?" I said as I stood up and unbuttoned my shorts and dragged my shirt over my head. He pretended like he wasn't looking but I knew better I could see that out of the corner of his eyes he was curious. He should be my body was brilliant. That was the one good thing that had come out of this mess.
"What are you doing Leah?" He said as he finally completed the task of closing his eyes.
"Jumping and you're doing it too! I'm sure you have some pent up frustration you need to let go off!" I jumped around in my bra and panties I liked to get a running start and then phase in the air. "We could make it a race. We could start here and then jump into the water and whoever makes it back to this line first wins." I giggled. This was the most playful I felt in a long time and I wanted him to humor me. Besides, this had to be better than staying at home and watching his ill preggers wife.
"I should be with her," he drew himself to his feet and I thought he was going to leave. "But I do need a little release." Edward stood beside me and readied himself and I smirked a little. I was about to race a vampire and I was going to win! "Yeah right … call it Clearwater."
"On your mark, get set, GO!"
"It's a tie!" He muttered this and mirrored my discontentment. "I didn't think that your kind could move that fast."
"The men can't I'm lighter so I move faster," I panted I laid on the ground fully clothed and breathless. "That was great! We should do it again!" I turned to look at Edward and he looked perplexed by something. "What?"
"I came here to hurt you Leah. I came here to be cruel and vicious. You made me realize that even though I love Bella watching her perish right before my eyes I've never been so miserable." He turned his back to me. It was now night and there was a full moon. His skin seemed to glisten slightly he looked like an angel, a melancholy angel.
"I can understand it must be hard for you," mumbled. I didn't know what to say I didn't expect to feel bad for the guy but I had to admit it was good to forget about my own drama and focus on somebody else. "Who knows she may not perish? Keep your head up leech I tentatively went over to him and put my hand on his shoulder. He looked at it and then me.
"Thank you," he whispered and then he did the weirdest thing. He reached out and wrapped his arms around me. It was a chilling and creepy feeling but I knew he meant well by it. "You aren't what people think you are Leah." He pulled away from me and strolled back toward his home. As he left me I felt empty, raw, and lost. It was a much worse feeling than I had came out here with.
A week had passed since Edward and I had talked. It was my night to patrol the area. I walked the house about ten times before I saw Edward coming toward me with a plate and a blanket. He walked with me to the back of the house and laid everything out. I guessed he wanted me to phase back into my human form. "Esme told me you wouldn't eat what she offered you. I thought I'd give it a try." I huffed and rolled my eyes. I didn't take handouts from leeches no matter if they were kind of … whatever Edward was.
"Plus, I need someone to talk to and I'd rather talk to you in your human form. So it's not really a handout it's more of a bribe." That seemed more reasonable. I was kind of hungry. I quickly changed and returned to him. He popped opened the cherry Pepsi and handed it to me.
"How'd you know I liked this?" I asked.
"Seth," he answered and it made sense. Seth had a little man crush on Edward and he was really talkative around him. "He also said that you'd been thinking about me a lot lately."
"Really," I said dryly. I didn't get the point of him sharing that information.
"Yeah, and I thought it was weird because my thoughts had drifted to you a time or two. That night was good for me Leah. You put a lot of things into perspective." As he talked I inched the sandwich over to my side of the blanket and began to eat. It was a turkey bacon club and it was delicious.
"I talked to Bella about Jacob." I stopped chewing I wasn't expecting him to say that. "She told me that she couldn't let him go. She said that she knows that she's horrible for feeling that she needs him but she does." I watched the hurt in Edward's eyes. I wanted to reach out to him. What man wants to hear his wife say she needs another man?
"I wish you would," he whispered.
"What?" I was confused.
"Reach out to me," Edward confessed and his lowered eyes lifted to look at me briefly. I gently covered his hand with mine.
"I told her I understood but I really don't," he forced out the words. "She spends most of her day conversing with him when he's not out protecting her. I want to tell her she can't have us both!" His frown grew.
"Then tell her," I stated firmly. "I don't think that request is unreasonable Edward, I think her expecting you to understand is a bat shit crazy!" Edward smirked at me and I chuckled. I removed my hand so I could finish my sandwich. Edward lay on his back and talked about the past and the stars. He needed to release and escape and apparently I gave him that. After a while he scooted toward me and placed his head in my lap and he closed his eyes. I'd never seen him with look so human and yet like a beautiful work of art. I wanted to take my fingers and explore the contours of his face but he wasn't mine and that wasn't proper.
"You can," he said softly.
"I shouldn't," I whispered.
"I know but I want you to anyway," he explained. I allowed my fingertips to caress him and comfort him. He skin was so cold and smooth. I noticed that my own heartbeat had accelerated, I was feeling several things and I realized that I hated what Bella was doing to him too. How could she have this amazing man that was here on this Earth only for her and still feel she needed more? Edward Cullen was more than enough. After a few minutes or hours of silence Edward sat back up. "Seth's coming. I should go thank you Leah for this." I nodded and put my head down. That loneliness and emptiness that I experienced before was returning. I didn't want him to go. I don't know why but I wished he would stay. I felt his cold lips place a small kiss on my cheek before disappearing into the house.
Renesmee was born and Bella was now a vampire. Jacob imprinted, the Volturi had been confronted and after all of that I was still alone, still waiting on the cliff trying to decide whether this was the right time to jump. The moon shimmered over the waters and everything looked so beautiful and the earth was so peaceful. I tried to be content with my life but anyone who said that were happy alone was a liar. I wanted more than what I was given. Whenever I thought this way in my wolf form I'm told by a million voices that I'm selfish and greedy. Who am I to question fate's plan for me? I sighed and looked at the moon and allowed the wind to blow my hair away from my face. Then his I felt him, he was in my space, his aroma was surrounding me.
"The mind rapist," I said playfully and I turned to him and his beautiful face looked miserable. How could someone who had everything he wanted look so miserable? "You okay?" He shook his head and came to sit down beside me.
"Vampires are monsters Leah," he stated after sitting quietly for a while. He stated something that I already knew. I knew he was speaking of himself and no one should have such a negative self view.
"I can't disagree with you there," I chuckled and rubbed my hands over my jeans and I waited for him to get his thoughts together.
"I should be happy," he whispered. "Why aren't I happy?" He looked at me with golden hazel eyes that expected answers.
"I don't know buddy," I said as I rubbed his back and tried to offer him comfort.
"We aren't buddies Leah. Ever since the first night we talked you were attracted to me your concern for me only grew out of your attraction to me," he spewed viciously.
"If you feel that way then why are you here?" I knew he was really hurting Edward but wasn't normally the kind to lash out at someone else. Maybe that's why he came here because he wanted to yell at someone that really didn't matter to him.
"I wish … I wish you didn't matter to me, but Leah I think about you every day. I don't know how one night with you changed my heart but it did. I can't get you out of my head. I imagine your touch and." He stopped and he covered his hands with his face. "I don't know what to do. I don't know why I'm here." I moved his hands and I approached him.
"You're here for this Edward." We kissed and the whole time he said it was wrong but he kissed me harder. He gripped my waist roughly and maneuvered me beneath him. I never knew the touch of a vampire could get me so hot and wanton. My thought was that this one time would cure both our curiosities and we could part ways. Edward went to unbutton my pants and then stopped. "It's okay," I whispered.
"No it's not, but we're going to do it anyway," he said before kissing me again. I'd never had a lover that was so gentle with me. He caressed me and worshiped my body as he kissed every inch of me multiple times. It felt like my soul was connected with his as we moved and moaned. This was a release of so many frustrations and emotions. I felt as the tears swelled in my eyes and rolled down my cheeks and I came. No one had ever made love to me, Sam had fucked me but this was so, so different. I stared into gold hazel eyes as I tried to regulate my breathing. He placed a kiss on my nose and slowly removed himself from me. There no words shared between us. We just lay together looking at the stars. More tears welled up inside me as I relived what I just experienced. I hopped up and began to dress. I realized something that I didn't want to process here beside him.
"Leah?" He asked for what I couldn't give him. I wasn't okay, I'd lied to myself and told myself it would be but this … it was wrong.
"Bye Edward," I muttered as I ran home. I knew that he could catch me if he wanted to, but I knew he had so much drama that he wouldn't. The truth was I wasn't worth chasing. I was his little release at midnight and that's the only thing I was good at.
Chapter 1: Introduction
December 2011
Sue didn't understand why her daughter was coming home. That was what she told herself anyway. It had been months since Leah had graduated with her Master's Degree and decided to stay in California. It still blew Sue's mind that she could brag and say that her daughter had received two degrees from Stanford University. She could still remember the day that Leah stood jumping up and down in the house after receiving her acceptance letter. After all of the supernatural craziness died down, Leah worked hard to bring her grades up and aspire for better or a normal life. She constantly would tell her mom that she could do better than this life. Sue was secretly hurt by Leah's comments, she didn't think anything was wrong with this life. She chalked Leah's attitude up to her still feeling hurt that she didn't get the happy ending that she expected.
Sue sighed, and paused in her cleaning up of the living room and looked a Leah's framed graduation photo. She looked so happy, smiling there with the dean. Sue was so proud, but it was another hurt when Leah had asked her not to come. She understood that it was because Leah knew that she'd bring Charlie, and his presence would just remind her that her own father is gone and that her mom had remarried. Sue didn't want her daughter to feel guilt on her special day. Leah sent pictures, tons of pictures, and called her mother daily letting her know that she loved and missed her. Sue caressed the glass over her daughter's face and clenched her jaw a bit. Leah's birthday was in a week and a half. Her first born would be twenty five This would normally be a major milestone, to be celebrated, but it caused Sue to worry subconsciously little.
"It's just a myth. A silly myth." She whispered to herself and placed the picture back on the mantle, then turned back to the pledge and cloth she'd left on the coffee table. After she'd been cleaning for only a couple of minutes, there was a knock on the door. Sue opened it to find Ann, her best friend, on the step, looking at her with worried eyes.
"Hey," Sue greeted her but did not invite her in. Several members of the tribe had been trying to contact her, and she was avoiding them, because she didn't want to talk. The rumors had begun to spread.
"Your aunt sent me." Sue groaned and stepped to the side so the Ann could come in. Sue respected Mirabelle more than she did most of her family members, however her head was full of the legends that we all considered myths, until oooh, about five years ago.
Both women sat down, Ann on the couch and Sue in Charlie's favorite chair. "Is Aunt Mir okay?" Ann nodded and tapped her fingers on her kneecaps nervously.
"Uh… yeah she's fine. She wanted me to talk to you about Leah and her birthday." Ann murmured slowly, barely giving Sue eye contact.
"That is a MYTH!" Sue spoke calmly but her tone was so rich that it sent a creepy chill down Ann's spine.
"I know you want to think that Sue, but…" Ann took a deep breath and steadied her voice. "But up until recently we all thought cold ones were a myth and shape shifting was just a fairy tale of sorts. your children are of noble blood. You have to prepare her for what might come." Sue got up abruptly and stood in front of Charlie's desk, her back to her friend. She glanced at a picture of Bella, Edward, and their daughter.
"Leah will be home in a few days," Sue confessed.
"Great! Sue, did you ask her to come home?" Ann asked confused. Sue shook her head.
"She called and said that she'd been dreaming of home, and wanted to visit for a little while." Sue's voice was small. She was curious what Leah could possibly have dreamt about that made her want to come home.
"The prophecy brought her home." Ann was mystified and Sue turned to her sharply.
"It could be that she missed her family and wanted to visit! It doesn't have to be that. It doesn't." Sue shook her finger at her friend for emphasis.
"Look, Sue, the sooner you admit to yourself that this is a possibility, the sooner you can prepare to help your daughter. She is going to be in great pain until will we can figure things out. We must figure things out quickly, before she is defiled." Ann spoke with an urgency, but was interrupted by the front door opening.
Charlie, Ness, Jacob, and Nahuel came in with boxes and groceries in tow. Charlie put his box down and stepped over to kiss his wife on the cheek. "Hey you," he spoke softly and she answered him with a soft smile. "Ann." He nodded towards his wife's friend, who gave him a wave as he went back to work. "Where do you want the decorations?"
"Uh, in the storage closet for now," Sue answered, and then smiled at Ness, her step granddaughter.
"I'm so glad you're going to let me help you cook, Miss Sue." Ness offered as she took the groceries to the kitchen. "My mom cooks some, but not like you."
"Of course, dear. I think Leah will love that you helped out with the cooking; especially the cake; Leah loves cake." Sue chuckled as she remembered a five year old Leah with two fists full of chocolate cake and pink icing across her cheeks. Her baby.
"I just can't believe she's coming home after all this time," Jacob said in disbelief.
"Visits to loved ones are important, they help you remember who you are and what you're… made out of." Nahuel mused aloud and everyone stared at him. He had the tendency to sound a bit like a fortune cookie, but he was a good guy. Jacob thought so, too. He would like him better if he found something better to do with his time than follow him and Ness around, but Jake could understand Nahuel not wanting to be up under the Cullens, too.
"I agree with you. It is important that Leah, and all of us really, are aware of our bloodlines and who we are." Ann gave her best friend a warning glare. "So when is Leah's party?"
"The night of her return," Sue answered. "It really just a dinner with the family… and cake." Sue shrugged off the hurt expression that Ann was giving her. She really wished that Ann hadn't found out about the party, but with her attitude about the Leah situation, she was glad she didn't invite her. Her presence would just keep her on edge.
"I can't wait until Friday!" Jake exclaimed. "Good eating and a little Leah bashing. I can't wait to her what she's been up to."
"I can't wait to meet her. Everyone has such differing opinions of this woman She seems to have many different faces." Nahuel said as he put the last box in the storage closet. "I will come over Friday morning to assist with the decorations since Jacob has other plans." Nahuel informed Sue and she smiled. Sue and Charlie both had formed a liking to this man; he was so polite, earnest, and very good with his hands. He loved to build things and figure out how things worked.
"Contrary to what anyone says, Leah is a good girl. She's just blunt and tough like her mother." Sue said, defending her daughter. She sat down beside Ann who was still expecting an invite to Friday's dinner.
"She's become bitter," Jacob murmured.
"Her experiences have made her bitter. If I'd gone through what she's had to, I would be bitter, too." Ness had rejoined the group in the living room and Jacob's disposition noticeable relaxed.
"You would've never behaved the way Leah did, you're too kind a person."
"Being bitter doesn't make you unkind, it means you're wounded." Nahuel said with his mouth partially full. Charlie and he had gotten a couple of the left over biscuits from breakfast.
"Yes, it is time for my bitter baby to come home."
One Month Later …
I sat in Leah's apartment glaring at the legal document on her coffee table. She hadn't come home from work yet. I was enraged by the day I'd had. It took a lot as a man to admit that you weren't enough to satisfy your wife. I had made the decision to finalize cutting ties with my wife. I thought she'd be agreeable and sign the papers but that was not the case. She felt that we still just needed time. I didn't get it she was the one that had broken our vows, how could she think that what we had could be salvaged? I picked up the papers and looked at the area where her signature should now be. My thoughts were distracted by Leah coming in. She looked a little alarmed by my disposition.
"I'm guessing today didn't go well?" She said as she placed her Chinese food on the table.
"She wouldn't sign," I answered and then covered my face with my hands. Leah sat beside me and rubbed my back.
"I told you she wouldn't," she snickered I shot a glance her way and couldn't help but chuckle too. "You belong to her Edward. She still loves you in a way; at the very least she loves the idea of you." Leah shrugged as she started to fix her plate. I got up to get her a Dasani.
"She cheated on me she doesn't get to choose," I stated bluntly.
"Don't tell me that, tell her," Leah offered before stuffing her mouth.
"You don't think I tried! She told me in so many words that I left her no choice because I stopped pleasing her physically," I confessed and Leah looked at me shocked.
"Why did you do that?" She asked. "A physical bond between a man and a woman is just as important as a mental one Edward. I mean you vampires don't require sleep so you can't say that you didn't have the time to please your wife." I thought back and tried to pinpoint how we grew apart I wasn't the only one that created the distanced. It seemed that we'd both tried to reconnect at times but we were never on the same page about it at the same time.
"We just grew apart I don't think either of us should really be blamed for that," I murmured. "I do hold Bella responsible for her infidelity though." Leah sighed and shook her head while she picked at her food. The mood had soured and Leah was trying think of how I could compromise with Bella.
"What if you evened the score? You could find some random stranger to give your vampire love to and then you and Bella can start over." I looked at her like she'd lost her mind and she knew it was a far stretch.
"Ooookay … well, what about if you two went to therapy. Marriage counseling is supposed to be very affective."
"Leah stop. Don't you think that I've thought about counseling? I would do it if I thought it would work." I got up and started pacing in her living room I wanted to talk about something else.
"Why haven't you taken any of the pictures of you and Sam down? Are you hoping that he'll come back to you?" I picked up one of the pictures where he was holding her close and looked as if he wanted to kiss her. I couldn't blame him she looked very appealing in the picture. Leah put her food down and went to retrieve the picture I was holding.
"No, I don't hold out any hope of that ever happening. Just because we didn't work out it doesn't mean I hate him. He had no real control over what he did to me." She caressed the image of her ex lover and placed it back on the shelf and I picked the picture back up again.
"Having these pictures surrounding you isn't helping you move forward. Don't you want to move on Leah and find somebody new?" Leah went to take the picture back from me and I held on with a firm grip.
"I'm content the way my life is Edward!" She snapped.
"How could you be Leah? All you've done is sacrifice and what do you have to show for it. You live here alone. All you do is work and come home you have no one to love and no one to share your life with! Your life has pretty much ended before it began and all these pictures are just reminders of that." She tugged on the frame once more as I released it and the picture went crashing onto the floor broken glass was now everywhere. Leah glared at me but said nothing she went to kitchen to get a broom. I didn't know how to explain my behavior. I don't know why I lashed out at the one person who'd given me what I needed to heal. She kneeled down and started cleaning up the mess I made. I kneeled down to and started picking up the pieces.
"Don't! You've done enough Edward," she whispered forcefully. Tears gently streamed down her face as she picked up the picture with shaky hands. "I'm doing the best I can to move on and keep my sanity. I'm sorry if you don't understand."
"No, Leah I'm sorry … I shouldn't," I started to speak and she held her hand up to stop me.
"I really think you've said enough. Tonight should probably be your last night here with me." Leah word's weren't mean but I'd hurt her and she wouldn't let me apologize. I watched as she poured the glass into the trash can and disappeared down the hall. I felt like a real imbecile I plopped down on the couch and noticed that she left the picture just laying there on the floor. I quickly picked it up and placed it on her counter in the kitchen. I heard as she cut her shower on. I groaned, not again. She began to disrobe and it meant that it was time for me to find something to distract myself. I didn't want tonight to go by and for Leah not to know how sorry I was. I didn't say those words to hurt her but I needed to finish what I'd started. I went to go to my room when I realized that I couldn't see Leah. She had closed her eyes and she was sobbing. I entered her room and expected her to be in there balled up somewhere she was in the bathroom and I pounded on the door.
"What?" She yelled with tears in her voice. I hesitantly opened the door and saw her bawled up in the shower with water just pouring over her naked body. She hadn't even bothered to close the shower curtain. "GET OUT!" She screamed at the top of lungs but her words had no affect on me. I kneeled down beside her and she looked away from me.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you Leah. The only reason I said those things is because you are an amazing woman and you deserve better than to live off a bunch of old memories. I think you can have anything in this world that you want if you reached out and grabbed it. I don't want you to settle," I murmured and I went to touch her face and she immediately let me know that was a bad idea.
"No, I can't have anything I want Edward. Sam himself is proof of that. I don't want anything or everything. The things I wanted in life were simple I wanted to be loved by a man; I wanted to start a life with him, and give him children. Somebody else has my dream." She sobbed for a minute but then stopped herself. "You are right though, I do live in my memories because before all of this supernatural shit I had everything I wanted but no one can bring my happiness back." I wanted to reach out to her but I knew how successful I'd been with that the last time. So instead I took off my shoes and socks and joined her in the tub fully clothed and wrapped my arms around her. At first she looked at me as if I was weird but then her eyes softened. I was wrapped up in our eye contact that I'd almost forgotten that she was completely naked. It was the first time I'd seen all of Leah. I didn't just see all of her body; I saw all of her emotion, her strength, her fury, and her pain. Her both lip was trembling I didn't know if it was because she was going to cry again or if it was because my body temperature was making her cold. I smoothed my thumb against her bottom lip and she gasped at the chill of my touch. I watched as the look in her eyes went from something fearful to something more dark and needy. She pressed her nakedness against me and crushed her lips against mine. She used her hands to cradle my face as she made our kiss more passionate. I could feel the sting of her warm tears still streamed down her face. After a moment she broke our kiss much to my dismay.
"I'm sorry," she whispered as her eye examined me with fear and hunger. She shook her head as she searched for clarity. She quickly removed herself from her tub and wrapped her body in a white towel I followed her out of the tub and into her bedroom. She was waiting for me to leave so that she could change but I had no plans on leaving. I had already seen all of her and had no plans on leaving. I approached her from behind and smoothed my hands along her shoulders and then her arms.
"This isn't happening," she murmured as I turned her around. "I made a mistake and got caught up in my feelings."
"You really didn't mean to kiss me? You're telling me that you've never thought about doing that before?" I asked and she glared at me a little.
"You're a little smug somebody," she murmured. I shook my head.
"No, I just know the inner workings of your mind. I know what you want right now. You may feel a tad conflicted but every fiber of your body being is tingling … to hear you mind say it anyway. You're wondering what I'm going to do next and you really want me closer." I snaked one of my arms around her so that our bodies were flushed against each other. I went to kiss her and she pulled back.
"Come on Leah, you want this. I know I've wanted this for quite some time now." She had the nerve to look at me alarmed.
"You want me? Edward you're just rebounding which is completely natural but pointless because this isn't going anywhere," Leah countered but she hadn't attempted to move from my grasped.
"I thought about that too, but being around you everyday just confirmed to me that Bella and I were done. I need you Leah because there's something you provide by just being by my side. Whatever it is you possess I need all of it to consume me. So please give it to me Leah," I murmured before I attempted to kiss her once more. This time she obliged me as she lifted her arms and wrapped them around my neck her towel fell and once again I was surrounding by her glorious smooth copper skin and voluptuous curves. I backed us toward the bed and then lifted her gingerly onto it.
"You're so beautiful Leah," I murmured as I discarded my drenched clothes and threw them across the room. Now we were both exposed. I took the time to allow my hands to explore Leah's perfection. She closed her eyes and marveled at my hands chilly seduction. She compared it to ice being dripped down her chest, circling her nipples, and slowly trailing down her abdomen.
"Lower," she groaned with a needy hunger. "Please." I leaned down and kissed her and then moved my lips and tongue lower. She moaned as soon as my lips grazed against her right nipple and I began to suck on it. The aroma of her arousal began to fill the room and began to sang to me on a bewitchingly. I was fully excited and ready to please her. I dragged my body over top of hers and slowly sunk into her womanly sea.
"Edward," she called for me. I didn't think it were possible for me to feel anymore turned on but sound of my name coming from her lips that way cause me to possess her hungrily.
"That's right Leah call out to me I want hear it," I groaned in her ear as I began to pick up speed. Between Leah's eratic breathing and moans she peppers kisses along my check and jaw line. Her gently touch cascade down my shoulder blades and spine.
"Oh Edward I'm close," she cried, tears were literally in her eyes and I did my best to give her what her mind asked for. Love me Edward … I want to give you all of me. Her mind chanted over and over again.
"That's right baby give it to me!" I groaned and thrust inside her harder causing her to climax beautifully. Leah's eye clenched shut as her mind revealed something to her. It was the same thing I'd begun to feel for her the very first night I stumbled into her work place. I was in love with her and she felt the same way about me. It was crazy to think of how we got here.
Ravenous locks so dark draped around my fingers. They feel like silk. I listen to her heartbeat. It's been so long since I've heard such a rapid pounding it resembles a beautiful erratic melody. I'm wrapped up in everything that is her. Her legs were still wrapped around my waist and I reach out to touch her face. Her eyelids begin to flutter rapidly as the reality of what we've done attacks her brain.
Word vomit, lately I'd become famous for it and now it seemed I'd pissed off the vampires too. I seriously couldn't care less. I stormed out of their house and away from their stupidity. My first thought was to go home but to be honest there was just as much brainlessness there. My life had been ripped to shreds and I was surrounded by idiots. Jacob Black was an idiot he was determined to pick at the scab that was Bella Swan. I didn't understand why people placated Jacob so much; he was mourning a relationship that he'd never had. True the girl admitted to liking him but not enough to date him, that when you say let it go, and move on. The pack is so sympathetic to his faux break up but when it comes to be me it's like they think I deserved it.
"You did deserve it and far worse," he said and I kept my back to him as I sat on the cliff. I knew his sent and it made sense that he'd be mad. I had after all just called his precious Bella a bitch for what she'd done to Jacob.
"It's the mind rapist here to defend his woman. I wish you'd spare me there's nothing you can say to make me apologize. Point blank your wife is the most selfish woman I've ever met and she's a hurtful bitch that pretends to be so sweet and innocent. At least I'm true to who I am!" I got up and finally turned to him and looked in his eyes that were as black as the night sky. Maybe he'd come here to kill me. Stupid leech he should know that I'm not scared of death. I was dead inside now anyway.
"You know nothing about her! You can't judge someone you've barely talked to," Edward fumed and bared his teeth. "I don't ever want you near her again. Don't place one of your damned paws our property!" I merely arched my eyebrow at him and laughed.
"You seriously think I want to be there?" I laughed at him outright. "Tell me. How can you even think that the way Bella does Jacob is fair to him? How is it fair to YOU? Plus, I'm sure that you didn't want her to go through with this pregnancy yet she's doing it … who is she doing it for? It's not you, so I'm guess she's doing it to make herself happy. By definition being selfish means lacking consideration for others and only being concerned with one's own personal pleasure, so you tell me, doesn't that describe the way your beloved Bella is acting? Isn't it Edward?" I yelled. He scoffed and went to walk away from me. "That's right leech leave and don't you say one damned word because you know I'm right!" As soon as I finished my sentence he was right in my face.
"The only reason I'm leaving is because no matter how vile your words are you are a female and I'm trying to respect you. You're pushing me though," he whispered and for some reason him being this close made my skin crawl but not in the way it should. For some reason him being this close made me really focus in on everything that was appealing about Edward Cullen. He snorted and gave me a vicious half smile.
"Don't do me any favors leech," I rolled my eyes and turned away from him. I tried to focus on my distain for everything he was. Not his alluring stare or his slender yet strong build. God, how long had it been since I'd gotten any? This was really the wrong time to be horny. Someone once said that there was a thin line between love and hate. Who said that anyway?
"It was started by a group in the seventies," he mumbled and I looked at him confused for a minute before remembering his abilities. "Bella wants to give the child a fighting chance that's not selfish," he defended his bride once more.
"What about the way she treats Jacob?" He said nothing and I knew that he agreed with me. I crossed my arms I wanted to hear him say it.
"He lets her treat him that way," Edward mumbled.
"Yeah and I think that Jacob's a dickless punk for it but that's not what I asked. Bella is treating Jacob like shit and you all act like that's okay … it's not okay!" Edward looked at me and it was like he was trying to extract something from my thoughts.
"Why do you care so much?" Edward finally asked as he sat where I was when he first got here. I followed suit and sat down beside him. Even though he was mad at me it was the first time someone was actually curious about my thoughts. Everyone else hated whenever I spoke or was in the same space as them really.
"Jake reminds me of myself a little bit. When all this stuff started happening and once Sam finally told me about the imprint he still wanted to be around me and he wanted Emily there too. I couldn't deal it ripped something out of me and made me feel." I stopped abruptly and shot and glare toward Edward who black eyes had begun to stare at me with pity. "I don't wanna talk about this shit."
"You probably should, it's probably a good release," Edward murmured and I smirked.
"You know what a good release is?" I said as I stood up and unbuttoned my shorts and dragged my shirt over my head. He pretended like he wasn't looking but I knew better I could see that out of the corner of his eyes he was curious. He should be my body was brilliant. That was the one good thing that had come out of this mess.
"What are you doing Leah?" He said as he finally completed the task of closing his eyes.
"Jumping and you're doing it too! I'm sure you have some pent up frustration you need to let go off!" I jumped around in my bra and panties I liked to get a running start and then phase in the air. "We could make it a race. We could start here and then jump into the water and whoever makes it back to this line first wins." I giggled. This was the most playful I felt in a long time and I wanted him to humor me. Besides, this had to be better than staying at home and watching his ill preggers wife.
"I should be with her," he drew himself to his feet and I thought he was going to leave. "But I do need a little release." Edward stood beside me and readied himself and I smirked a little. I was about to race a vampire and I was going to win! "Yeah right … call it Clearwater."
"On your mark, get set, GO!"
"It's a tie!" He muttered this and mirrored my discontentment. "I didn't think that your kind could move that fast."
"The men can't I'm lighter so I move faster," I panted I laid on the ground fully clothed and breathless. "That was great! We should do it again!" I turned to look at Edward and he looked perplexed by something. "What?"
"I came here to hurt you Leah. I came here to be cruel and vicious. You made me realize that even though I love Bella watching her perish right before my eyes I've never been so miserable." He turned his back to me. It was now night and there was a full moon. His skin seemed to glisten slightly he looked like an angel, a melancholy angel.
"I can understand it must be hard for you," mumbled. I didn't know what to say I didn't expect to feel bad for the guy but I had to admit it was good to forget about my own drama and focus on somebody else. "Who knows she may not perish? Keep your head up leech I tentatively went over to him and put my hand on his shoulder. He looked at it and then me.
"Thank you," he whispered and then he did the weirdest thing. He reached out and wrapped his arms around me. It was a chilling and creepy feeling but I knew he meant well by it. "You aren't what people think you are Leah." He pulled away from me and strolled back toward his home. As he left me I felt empty, raw, and lost. It was a much worse feeling than I had came out here with.
A week had passed since Edward and I had talked. It was my night to patrol the area. I walked the house about ten times before I saw Edward coming toward me with a plate and a blanket. He walked with me to the back of the house and laid everything out. I guessed he wanted me to phase back into my human form. "Esme told me you wouldn't eat what she offered you. I thought I'd give it a try." I huffed and rolled my eyes. I didn't take handouts from leeches no matter if they were kind of … whatever Edward was.
"Plus, I need someone to talk to and I'd rather talk to you in your human form. So it's not really a handout it's more of a bribe." That seemed more reasonable. I was kind of hungry. I quickly changed and returned to him. He popped opened the cherry Pepsi and handed it to me.
"How'd you know I liked this?" I asked.
"Seth," he answered and it made sense. Seth had a little man crush on Edward and he was really talkative around him. "He also said that you'd been thinking about me a lot lately."
"Really," I said dryly. I didn't get the point of him sharing that information.
"Yeah, and I thought it was weird because my thoughts had drifted to you a time or two. That night was good for me Leah. You put a lot of things into perspective." As he talked I inched the sandwich over to my side of the blanket and began to eat. It was a turkey bacon club and it was delicious.
"I talked to Bella about Jacob." I stopped chewing I wasn't expecting him to say that. "She told me that she couldn't let him go. She said that she knows that she's horrible for feeling that she needs him but she does." I watched the hurt in Edward's eyes. I wanted to reach out to him. What man wants to hear his wife say she needs another man?
"I wish you would," he whispered.
"What?" I was confused.
"Reach out to me," Edward confessed and his lowered eyes lifted to look at me briefly. I gently covered his hand with mine.
"I told her I understood but I really don't," he forced out the words. "She spends most of her day conversing with him when he's not out protecting her. I want to tell her she can't have us both!" His frown grew.
"Then tell her," I stated firmly. "I don't think that request is unreasonable Edward, I think her expecting you to understand is a bat shit crazy!" Edward smirked at me and I chuckled. I removed my hand so I could finish my sandwich. Edward lay on his back and talked about the past and the stars. He needed to release and escape and apparently I gave him that. After a while he scooted toward me and placed his head in my lap and he closed his eyes. I'd never seen him with look so human and yet like a beautiful work of art. I wanted to take my fingers and explore the contours of his face but he wasn't mine and that wasn't proper.
"You can," he said softly.
"I shouldn't," I whispered.
"I know but I want you to anyway," he explained. I allowed my fingertips to caress him and comfort him. He skin was so cold and smooth. I noticed that my own heartbeat had accelerated, I was feeling several things and I realized that I hated what Bella was doing to him too. How could she have this amazing man that was here on this Earth only for her and still feel she needed more? Edward Cullen was more than enough. After a few minutes or hours of silence Edward sat back up. "Seth's coming. I should go thank you Leah for this." I nodded and put my head down. That loneliness and emptiness that I experienced before was returning. I didn't want him to go. I don't know why but I wished he would stay. I felt his cold lips place a small kiss on my cheek before disappearing into the house.
Renesmee was born and Bella was now a vampire. Jacob imprinted, the Volturi had been confronted and after all of that I was still alone, still waiting on the cliff trying to decide whether this was the right time to jump. The moon shimmered over the waters and everything looked so beautiful and the earth was so peaceful. I tried to be content with my life but anyone who said that were happy alone was a liar. I wanted more than what I was given. Whenever I thought this way in my wolf form I'm told by a million voices that I'm selfish and greedy. Who am I to question fate's plan for me? I sighed and looked at the moon and allowed the wind to blow my hair away from my face. Then his I felt him, he was in my space, his aroma was surrounding me.
"The mind rapist," I said playfully and I turned to him and his beautiful face looked miserable. How could someone who had everything he wanted look so miserable? "You okay?" He shook his head and came to sit down beside me.
"Vampires are monsters Leah," he stated after sitting quietly for a while. He stated something that I already knew. I knew he was speaking of himself and no one should have such a negative self view.
"I can't disagree with you there," I chuckled and rubbed my hands over my jeans and I waited for him to get his thoughts together.
"I should be happy," he whispered. "Why aren't I happy?" He looked at me with golden hazel eyes that expected answers.
"I don't know buddy," I said as I rubbed his back and tried to offer him comfort.
"We aren't buddies Leah. Ever since the first night we talked you were attracted to me your concern for me only grew out of your attraction to me," he spewed viciously.
"If you feel that way then why are you here?" I knew he was really hurting Edward but wasn't normally the kind to lash out at someone else. Maybe that's why he came here because he wanted to yell at someone that really didn't matter to him.
"I wish … I wish you didn't matter to me, but Leah I think about you every day. I don't know how one night with you changed my heart but it did. I can't get you out of my head. I imagine your touch and." He stopped and he covered his hands with his face. "I don't know what to do. I don't know why I'm here." I moved his hands and I approached him.
"You're here for this Edward." We kissed and the whole time he said it was wrong but he kissed me harder. He gripped my waist roughly and maneuvered me beneath him. I never knew the touch of a vampire could get me so hot and wanton. My thought was that this one time would cure both our curiosities and we could part ways. Edward went to unbutton my pants and then stopped. "It's okay," I whispered.
"No it's not, but we're going to do it anyway," he said before kissing me again. I'd never had a lover that was so gentle with me. He caressed me and worshiped my body as he kissed every inch of me multiple times. It felt like my soul was connected with his as we moved and moaned. This was a release of so many frustrations and emotions. I felt as the tears swelled in my eyes and rolled down my cheeks and I came. No one had ever made love to me, Sam had fucked me but this was so, so different. I stared into gold hazel eyes as I tried to regulate my breathing. He placed a kiss on my nose and slowly removed himself from me. There no words shared between us. We just lay together looking at the stars. More tears welled up inside me as I relived what I just experienced. I hopped up and began to dress. I realized something that I didn't want to process here beside him.
"Leah?" He asked for what I couldn't give him. I wasn't okay, I'd lied to myself and told myself it would be but this … it was wrong.
"Bye Edward," I muttered as I ran home. I knew that he could catch me if he wanted to, but I knew he had so much drama that he wouldn't. The truth was I wasn't worth chasing. I was his little release at midnight and that's the only thing I was good at.
Chapter 1: Introduction
December 2011
Sue didn't understand why her daughter was coming home. That was what she told herself anyway. It had been months since Leah had graduated with her Master's Degree and decided to stay in California. It still blew Sue's mind that she could brag and say that her daughter had received two degrees from Stanford University. She could still remember the day that Leah stood jumping up and down in the house after receiving her acceptance letter. After all of the supernatural craziness died down, Leah worked hard to bring her grades up and aspire for better or a normal life. She constantly would tell her mom that she could do better than this life. Sue was secretly hurt by Leah's comments, she didn't think anything was wrong with this life. She chalked Leah's attitude up to her still feeling hurt that she didn't get the happy ending that she expected.
Sue sighed, and paused in her cleaning up of the living room and looked a Leah's framed graduation photo. She looked so happy, smiling there with the dean. Sue was so proud, but it was another hurt when Leah had asked her not to come. She understood that it was because Leah knew that she'd bring Charlie, and his presence would just remind her that her own father is gone and that her mom had remarried. Sue didn't want her daughter to feel guilt on her special day. Leah sent pictures, tons of pictures, and called her mother daily letting her know that she loved and missed her. Sue caressed the glass over her daughter's face and clenched her jaw a bit. Leah's birthday was in a week and a half. Her first born would be twenty five This would normally be a major milestone, to be celebrated, but it caused Sue to worry subconsciously little.
"It's just a myth. A silly myth." She whispered to herself and placed the picture back on the mantle, then turned back to the pledge and cloth she'd left on the coffee table. After she'd been cleaning for only a couple of minutes, there was a knock on the door. Sue opened it to find Ann, her best friend, on the step, looking at her with worried eyes.
"Hey," Sue greeted her but did not invite her in. Several members of the tribe had been trying to contact her, and she was avoiding them, because she didn't want to talk. The rumors had begun to spread.
"Your aunt sent me." Sue groaned and stepped to the side so the Ann could come in. Sue respected Mirabelle more than she did most of her family members, however her head was full of the legends that we all considered myths, until oooh, about five years ago.
Both women sat down, Ann on the couch and Sue in Charlie's favorite chair. "Is Aunt Mir okay?" Ann nodded and tapped her fingers on her kneecaps nervously.
"Uh… yeah she's fine. She wanted me to talk to you about Leah and her birthday." Ann murmured slowly, barely giving Sue eye contact.
"That is a MYTH!" Sue spoke calmly but her tone was so rich that it sent a creepy chill down Ann's spine.
"I know you want to think that Sue, but…" Ann took a deep breath and steadied her voice. "But up until recently we all thought cold ones were a myth and shape shifting was just a fairy tale of sorts. your children are of noble blood. You have to prepare her for what might come." Sue got up abruptly and stood in front of Charlie's desk, her back to her friend. She glanced at a picture of Bella, Edward, and their daughter.
"Leah will be home in a few days," Sue confessed.
"Great! Sue, did you ask her to come home?" Ann asked confused. Sue shook her head.
"She called and said that she'd been dreaming of home, and wanted to visit for a little while." Sue's voice was small. She was curious what Leah could possibly have dreamt about that made her want to come home.
"The prophecy brought her home." Ann was mystified and Sue turned to her sharply.
"It could be that she missed her family and wanted to visit! It doesn't have to be that. It doesn't." Sue shook her finger at her friend for emphasis.
"Look, Sue, the sooner you admit to yourself that this is a possibility, the sooner you can prepare to help your daughter. She is going to be in great pain until will we can figure things out. We must figure things out quickly, before she is defiled." Ann spoke with an urgency, but was interrupted by the front door opening.
Charlie, Ness, Jacob, and Nahuel came in with boxes and groceries in tow. Charlie put his box down and stepped over to kiss his wife on the cheek. "Hey you," he spoke softly and she answered him with a soft smile. "Ann." He nodded towards his wife's friend, who gave him a wave as he went back to work. "Where do you want the decorations?"
"Uh, in the storage closet for now," Sue answered, and then smiled at Ness, her step granddaughter.
"I'm so glad you're going to let me help you cook, Miss Sue." Ness offered as she took the groceries to the kitchen. "My mom cooks some, but not like you."
"Of course, dear. I think Leah will love that you helped out with the cooking; especially the cake; Leah loves cake." Sue chuckled as she remembered a five year old Leah with two fists full of chocolate cake and pink icing across her cheeks. Her baby.
"I just can't believe she's coming home after all this time," Jacob said in disbelief.
"Visits to loved ones are important, they help you remember who you are and what you're… made out of." Nahuel mused aloud and everyone stared at him. He had the tendency to sound a bit like a fortune cookie, but he was a good guy. Jacob thought so, too. He would like him better if he found something better to do with his time than follow him and Ness around, but Jake could understand Nahuel not wanting to be up under the Cullens, too.
"I agree with you. It is important that Leah, and all of us really, are aware of our bloodlines and who we are." Ann gave her best friend a warning glare. "So when is Leah's party?"
"The night of her return," Sue answered. "It really just a dinner with the family… and cake." Sue shrugged off the hurt expression that Ann was giving her. She really wished that Ann hadn't found out about the party, but with her attitude about the Leah situation, she was glad she didn't invite her. Her presence would just keep her on edge.
"I can't wait until Friday!" Jake exclaimed. "Good eating and a little Leah bashing. I can't wait to her what she's been up to."
"I can't wait to meet her. Everyone has such differing opinions of this woman She seems to have many different faces." Nahuel said as he put the last box in the storage closet. "I will come over Friday morning to assist with the decorations since Jacob has other plans." Nahuel informed Sue and she smiled. Sue and Charlie both had formed a liking to this man; he was so polite, earnest, and very good with his hands. He loved to build things and figure out how things worked.
"Contrary to what anyone says, Leah is a good girl. She's just blunt and tough like her mother." Sue said, defending her daughter. She sat down beside Ann who was still expecting an invite to Friday's dinner.
"She's become bitter," Jacob murmured.
"Her experiences have made her bitter. If I'd gone through what she's had to, I would be bitter, too." Ness had rejoined the group in the living room and Jacob's disposition noticeable relaxed.
"You would've never behaved the way Leah did, you're too kind a person."
"Being bitter doesn't make you unkind, it means you're wounded." Nahuel said with his mouth partially full. Charlie and he had gotten a couple of the left over biscuits from breakfast.
"Yes, it is time for my bitter baby to come home."
I like your Idea I would like to read a fan fic like that, so I hope your write it.
ReplyDeleteThat was so good! I loved it!!!! I would love to see more of this ;) Awesome job, awesome writing, awesome story.
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There's more of it on Fanfiction.net! I will probably post another teaser later :-)
DeleteHi, I love LEAH and I'm not happy either that she, has to do suffice that little she has. She is surrounded by people who have a lot, too much. But trouble at accuse their of this. This is not right.
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